I went back in time and read what I wrote in the past. It rekindled ever bit of feeling that still coarse through my veins. I can’t help but to think of how much time has passed. It feels just right and then at the same time it feels as if it should be longer. Many words have been said, but now we have sworn our hearts to each other. Once our fears, now they are nothing but a second memory. It’s almost been a whole year. Look at our bond, stronger than diamond itself. Nothing can sever it.
Yet there is a small hint of pain in my heart, for I cannot see you, yet again. It kills me to be away from you so. I want to be so close to you right now I can’t stand it. But what I want most of all is for you to know how much I truly love you. I used to think love wasn’t cut out for me. I couldn’t picture myself getting married, and every relationship I got into only got worse each time. Yet when I hear you say that you are going to marry me…for once I can actually picture it. I can see a life with you, I can feel it. I know after all this time that has passed between us, you are the one. Your name has been engraved in my heart since the day I was born. I didnt realize it because it was hidden within my heart. I had to go through the pains and trails of love to understand its true meaning as well as to have my heart broken to get to you. I know I have said this before, but if we were to have to go back into time, I would do it all over again. I would endure the pain, the suffering, and all the tears that I shed these past couple years just so I could relive everything with you again.
I know you say you can feel my every feeling for my heart is within your chest. Do you know that every time you say you’re going to marry me my heart begins to race. I cant help but to smile because the thought of it is more precious than anything to me. Because that’s how much you mean to me. To be able to call you my husband, to speak vows to you of honor and love, to be joined in holy matrimony…to by Mrs. Sisney. I know its crazy but its in a good way. My hands feel kind of empty at the moment, for im so use to having them in yours. If only I could hear your voice. I could listen to you tell me how much how much you truly love me. I could be locked in your embrace and feel you kiss my neck so softly.
Our hearts beat in time, we can feel each other as true lovers should. Ever since the moment we laid eyes on each other we have been bound by blood, bound by heart, and by soul.
It is 3:00 a.m and I know you have fallen asleep…I bid thee goodnight, sleep well, don’t think of the pain caused by our absence, dwell in the feelings we have. Lets count the days together, and dream of each other. For time holds no mercy but is forced to bring us together again.
· Thu Jan 20, 2011 @ 08:04am · 1 Comments