It is the first morning of the new year, and I'm just praying it be good. It started off fine enough, then Kevin had to show his face. I can tell, just by the way my sister acts, that she is not ready to let go of him yet. She protects him, even now. I wish she would, but maybe I don't have any room to talk myself. I am so upset right now.
He just up and disappeared on me again, and I don't even know if he's all right. I feel like there should be nothing between us by now. That he obviously does not value or trust me, and that I put too much faith in him. And this makes me so sad. I know I should let this go, but I also know I probably don't have the strength to say no. I don't want to. I'm still attached to him, I still want him. I feel like I am stuck in this place, because I would like to run away, but at the same time, this is the only place I can be so anyone that needs me can find me. I know it isn't that serious, but damn. And what makes it all so worse is that he's nowhere to be found. I'm just left with all these thoughts and feelings once again.
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3/19/10
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