there is seriously NOTHING going on right now.
even nothing on facebook, the eternal spring of awesome mindlessness.
........................................
just wanna hide under a rock and forget this whole world.
i don't wanna think, don't wanna feel, don't wanna be.
a few days ago I took a trip down memory lane. uncovered stuff I'd forgotten about.... the people who've changed me into who I am, and still hope to be.
the laughs, stupid jokes, and intense arguments.....
i look at that, look at me, look at people I wish to be like...
nothing's adding up.
soooo much other stuff to think about besides just trying to figure out ANOTHER identity, just don't wanna think about it.
but it's such an integral part of everything.
this is why i hate breaks. too much time to think and not enough to do everything you're excited to do for two months ahead of break.
*huff*
christmas isn't really worth it. gotta clean today in anticipation of tonight, just me and mom around the farm. no one else around lol.
about a month ago I got a peace lily from work that someone was going to throw out. it looked a little sad, but it sure revived quick enough. ^^ it's the pickiest plant I own (= one day it'll be the healthiest plant I own, the next it'll droop like it's dead and is resigned to be nothing more than a pile of compost), and today i repotted it into an ice cream bucket because the root ball was SOLID. it should've been repotted a few months ago... jeebers.
it'll go into shock, no doubt, but already it's looking a little more perky.
if you can call drooping over the edges of the basket "perky." haha.
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