It's been awhile, i thought i was going to restart my whole wonderful gaia experience but going on towns just isn't the same & my heart is afraid to be put in that place again. I want to make connections like before but i know that what I want will never be what he/they can give me. Sticking around just makes things more difficult which is kind of why i left. I can't say no because the love inside my heart beguiles me into thinking that everything could turn out okay. But that's the biggest lie I've ever told myself (which is saying a whole lot). Im tired of being the burden that ends up breaking hearts. I'll always be wanting him in my life & just the sight of him brings me back to all the pain I thought I had left in the past