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I dont get anything at all...is it me? Why did I deserve something like that twice?...I guess Im accident prone to this stuff...I cant think straight, and in overall the beating of my heart stopped beating....why do I even try to open up to anyone h

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Why? Why do I fall for this every time? ....Serves me right...... I think Ive had enough heartache to last me a lifetime....I try too ******** hard......Ill change my ways for the better

Posted by: Crazi8s Wed Mar 15, 2006 @ 03:08am

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Commented on: Thu Mar 16, 2006 @ 01:05pm


	I'm sorry, hun. Please don't think bad of yourself. It's not your fault that she's a lying b**h. It's not YOUR fault that she jerked you around. She's the bad person. Not you hugs tightly*

Commented on: Fri Mar 17, 2006 @ 09:14pm


	Hugs you tight Up your standards smile Well.. You, yourself, know you're better than lying whores. XD It's really not you fault.. lying whores are just.. eh.. gross.

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Commented on: Mon Mar 20, 2006 @ 12:13pm


	you people have no idea what is going on in my life, or what happened. and have no right to call me names. i did nothing to you. and if you only new what heppend to me you would know i was going through hell right now trying to get through this.... i dont want self pitty, but i didnt plan on having a child right now. non the less being raped... crying crying crying crying i just wish people would worry about themselves and stop picking on people they dont know anything about. you know a better person would be there for him, not put someone down you dont even know. and maybe crazi will relize who his real friends are from this and who act there ages and are really there for him.

Commented on: Mon Mar 20, 2006 @ 01:08pm


	No matter what happened, if you truly loved him, you wouldn't have kept it from him. THAT is what makes you a liar and a b***h. He deserves better. You know, if I had gotten pregnant one of the two times I was beaten and raped, I wouldn't be near as excited about being pregnant from it. I'd have the baby as I could not abort a child but I'd have to put it up for adoption for the fear that I would resent the child without meaning to. Since it came from such a horrible, traumatic experience. However, I care about HIM and that's why I won't mind my business and care about myself. Only truly selfish people care more about themselves than the people they supposedly love.

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Commented on: Mon Mar 20, 2006 @ 05:32pm


	Blackstar, I think you should just let it be. I mean this is really not your place to say anything. Nor is it anyone's place other than crazi and binding's. Crazi and I have been friends for a good long time and I am upset too that he is hurting so much. For cryin out loud! I would do anything for that man and he knows it. But I am not going to sit here and write to binding angel telling her she is a whore or what ever you all are calling her. She did not rape herself! She was forced into sexual activity that was not wanted! And a child was produced. Thats all there is too it. yes she messed up by hiding it from Crazi but she did. I am sure you would not come right out and tell some one you loved you were pregnant and did not know who the father was...now would you? NO! so just leave her alone! If we truly wanted to be there for Crazi we would be there for him to talk to. God I am sure the last thing he wants to hear is how we think poorly of some one he was once inlove with! You really need to grow up. Leave them alone. I am here for Crazi but I am also here for binding. She didn't do this to herself. It was done to her. I hold nothing against her or anyone else. I am an adult about these situations. I am not judgmental.

Commented on: Mon Mar 20, 2006 @ 10:34pm


	n1t3ang3l(Tenshi) i really respect the way you are and how you said you would help me through this.. its nice to know that there are some nice people in the world. and i think crazi is very lucky to have a friend like you. BlackStar111 why would i be upset about a baby, a baby is a blessing from god... but I am really upset to who did this to me. i cant change the past. but i know i will love my baby through thick and thin. and let her/him know that his/ her mommy loves him/her verry mutch.

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Commented on: Mon Mar 20, 2006 @ 11:04pm


	I'm dropping this but I would just like to state that I am NOT the one who called her a whore. Do not accuse me of things I clearly didn't do. And it does not make me a mean or bad person to dislike the person who hurt someone who means alot to me.

Commented on: Mon Mar 20, 2006 @ 11:09pm


	Screw you Star alright? I have had to sit by and watch one person I love get his heart broken more than one time! I sit by as his friend because it is all I can do. I am not going to sit here and act all ignorant to his ex or to his current girlfriend because I don't like her! s*t you don't even know her! I don't know her. But I do know this! I am tired of you! I don't like you! I think Crazi could do a hell of alot better then you! and I am risking my friendship with him just because I am finally saying what I have wanted to say for a long time! I respect Crazi and Damnit I stand on the side lines watching some one I love and wish I could be with get torn apart by women like you. So what! Binding angel got into trouble! She did not intentionally hurt him! Let it be holy hell! I can't take anymore of this sht! I love pete with all my heart but I am not going to listen to you bash him and some one who did nothing to hurt him on purpose! You don't know what love is Star and you never will. Love is sacrifice and trust me. Standing on the side lines is hello of a sacrifice. Try it without being a big baby about it.

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Commented on: Tue Mar 21, 2006 @ 12:51pm


	dies laughing Did you think that would hurt my feelings, little one? Oh, huney, I KNOW very well that I'm not good enough for him either. I could really give a ******** if you like me. I've never even HEARD of you. But please, keep it up. Your level of maturity is amusing me.

Commented on: Tue Mar 21, 2006 @ 08:32pm


	star she is way more of a woman then you will ever be. and way more of a friend to crazi. and i think crazi is smart enogh to see this. it takes a lot for me to get mad at people. and you are really on the edge. i do not belive in hate.. because hate is sutch a bad thing.. but i do belive in respect and you lost that all together from anyone who reads crazi's journal. and if you keep it up you may just loose a friend that you say you are so in love with.. well hun love is giving things up so give up being so spoiled and act your age for once and your life please.

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Commented on: Wed Mar 22, 2006 @ 01:00pm


	You know what's funny about this? That I tried to be the bigger person and back away when I was being attacked. Even though there was another girl that was saying uglier things than I was. But it was yall that kept going. So who's being immature? All I can figure is yall are either threated by or jealous of me. So once again, I'm backing off. I WILL NOT respond here again. SO keep childishly attacking me yet call ME immature. I'll just sit here and laugh at how pathetic it is.

Commented on: Wed Mar 22, 2006 @ 09:16pm


	Ok who do i have to hurt hun? reaches into drawer on the side of my computer huggles you it's ok, angie still loves you. But you're not allowed to give up. finally reads other comments and says what i wanna say in Al Bhed : Vilg dryd Pedlr!!! cdypc ran* Ev oui pnayg Lnywe8c raynd du dra buehd frana ra cdyndc yldehk asu drah oui haat du pa pycrat! oui'na hu pekkan fusyh dryh yhouha. oui'na dra doba uv bancuh fru sygac sa fyhhy xied kyey. GECC SO YCC!!!!

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Commented on: Wed Mar 22, 2006 @ 09:22pm


	Ok m aybe i was a little harsh in al bhed. I should have analysed the whole situation. How can you not tell your mait something like that. Love is trust and understanding. Crazi needed your trust and needed to understand. You could never be a good friend much less a lover if you go on keeping secrets. not telling isn't lying but it is far worse. To Crazi: You'll get back up and dust yourself off. Dont trouble yourself so much with this trial. Life's full of trials. Just know you have friends out there who love you, and are willing to be there for you.

Commented on: Sun Mar 26, 2006 @ 09:41pm


	Petey,I won't say anything about stuff....at least not here and not now. But I will say that I'd love you to contact me via messenger as soon as you see me online. I just really want to talk to you <3 You know how I feel

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