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Musings of a Christian Mystic in training
Like the titles says, opinions and speculations is Christian and Gnostic Christian mysticism
why do I want to know God?
A friend asked me this earlier today and to be honest I was actual kinda stumped for a moment. Now the Gnostic mythos teaches that by knowing God one can return back to God and be free of the material world and free from Death, but where I go (if I go anywhere) is rather irrelevant to me. There are many wonderful things in this world that I do enjoy so why then do I want to leave it or let it go?

I had to think about and well as much as I find these things wonderful I don't want to be disillusioned by them. I want to enjoy them without thinking that my sense of Self is dependent on what's external. Yes things external may influence my sense of Self that is the nature of life, but I don't want those things defining my sense of Self. I am not the people I f*ck, I am not the food that I eat, I am not job that I go to, I am not the expectations that others have of me. I am Me. I am who I am. I am a little piece of the God that I want to know. By seeking to know this God, I am pushed to know myself and not get lost in the flow of the humdrum nor do I want to get lost in my thoughts. I am pushed to LIVE life. I can go with flow if I wish but I am conscious of it and I don't have to stay in that flow if I don't want to either. I want to know God because I want to live life and not be lost in the humdrum nor lost in my thoughts. I want to be transformed into the person I am.

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Ajani Kai
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commentCommented on: Fri Sep 21, 2012 @ 01:37am

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You know, I've had people ask why I wanted to know God too in the past, present and future. But my view is different lol as is every one elses. I applaud you on your desire to know God. But may Make a suggestion? (I know it may seem crazy...) check out the laws of Science (not evolution but the real laws).
I wanted to know God personally, because I wanted to know how DNA was created, how FOUR letters were able to create so many DIFFERENT combos that make up our entire personality, character, looks and attitude design... Very interesting findings, also, I will not influence anything, but I do suggest checking out the beginning of when "information" or "knowledge" comes from... now that will really make for a study time LOL

Anyway, I wish you the best of the blessed!

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