This is short and thoughtful, the one side of me that wants to reveal itself but right now it's two separate things to talk about...
The last post I was a bit off my tits.....okay
off the planet but it's frustrating with this place that I live in, the people that are around, the things that happen all of it always seems like it's going to fast but really I'm just refusing to go with the time.
What I'm talking about is that the year is almost over and I haven't even begun to start panicking like usual... The holidays, the awkward moments that will come, the "love" that we show in this "Family". That's just it, I MIGHT resent my family, to the point that I just want to pack my bags and leave and never come back. But I never do, why? Because as I sat down and watched the time go by, I realized that without consideration of who is here and who isn't that we wouldn't be the same people.
This is what I believe:
my brother sticks around at home because he's lost the point of what to do with his life but at the same time finding it and while he's doing that he's helping with this "family" in the way that it needs to be fixed. But even when he's trying, it's like they won't accept and what happens then? Nothing. Except the changing of time without movement.
The reason I stick around is because I have to, age is important and so education but once it's legal there's really no reason to keep me here. And I mean no reason for me to stay.
The same goes for my little brother except he wants to go to college....
But when all said and done what's gonna happen to those that "raised" us?
What happens then?
The last post I was a bit off my tits.....okay
off the planet but it's frustrating with this place that I live in, the people that are around, the things that happen all of it always seems like it's going to fast but really I'm just refusing to go with the time.
What I'm talking about is that the year is almost over and I haven't even begun to start panicking like usual... The holidays, the awkward moments that will come, the "love" that we show in this "Family". That's just it, I MIGHT resent my family, to the point that I just want to pack my bags and leave and never come back. But I never do, why? Because as I sat down and watched the time go by, I realized that without consideration of who is here and who isn't that we wouldn't be the same people.
This is what I believe:
my brother sticks around at home because he's lost the point of what to do with his life but at the same time finding it and while he's doing that he's helping with this "family" in the way that it needs to be fixed. But even when he's trying, it's like they won't accept and what happens then? Nothing. Except the changing of time without movement.
The reason I stick around is because I have to, age is important and so education but once it's legal there's really no reason to keep me here. And I mean no reason for me to stay.
The same goes for my little brother except he wants to go to college....
But when all said and done what's gonna happen to those that "raised" us?
What happens then?
-A.A </3
