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What_The_FudgeCracker12
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*confessions*
soo just like the title i have alot to say
alot i have been holding in not believing
the truth running away is what some ppl would like to say it
is. i normally dont run away from the truth i embrace it and find a way to mak it work ask almost anything but once i give up on you completly im seriously dont with you so dont try to come back.
well there is something wrong with me. and for once im scared i go to the doctors like 4 or 5 times a month sometime i wake up in screaming pain
and i want surgery but ofcourse they wont just give it to me
they just drug me and tell me ill be fine
but all the pain killer do is cover up the pain and make me sleep alot.
so now i see
-regular doctor
-therapist
- hospital
-a gyno
- and now a intestion doctor
it feels like i have no hand to hold and no one to wipe my tears away. i keep holding my head up saying everything will be okay but now whatever it is its making me not want to eat anymore so im loosing weight
i work intense hours i try hard to get over time cause im trying to cover up how scared nevouse i truely am. i stay awake thru the night praying to make everything is okay but the pain is getting so bad i dont even want to touch my stomach the confession is i havnt told my mommy or daddy or justin or soli and i feel bad cause now i feel like i pushed them away but if something goes wrong i dont want to hurt them if something goes wrong
i love you guys im sorry





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Miss Captain Crunch
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comment Commented on: Tue Jul 20, 2010 @ 07:15pm
oh, babe, i'm not mad, but i would really rather you tell someone. i want you to be okay. i love you with everything i am, && i'd be lost without you. if anything ever happened to you...
i wouldn't know how to move on. && that's the truth.
i love you. i know you can be strong. but being strong doesn't always mean you have to do it alone.
<3


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