Some stuff happened on Thursday of this week, that will be affecting my family for the rest of their lives, including me. I don't know how to feel, I could have done something to help it but instead I was a dumbass and did nothing until it was too late to change.......This Tuesday....isn't going to be a day I will be looking for to...the last day of seeing her in this world. The next day we are going to a temple.....I dunno how I should be feeling and I've just been thinking what ifs, what if I had did something? Would it still have the same outcome? or would it have been different? What should I have said? Was there something I could have done to prevent this?