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For some reason i always feel like guys are using me for sex...i mean dont get me wrong i like sex but once I would like to find someone that doesnt want just sex cause like this is bullshit...but u know there is the upside cause im only 15 but I dont know...to quoet my friend Gabby "freshmen need to lean to put out or they need to learn there going to be cheated on" well true and i know this but i think atleast one guy doesnt need this somewhere i mean there has to be or atleast he wouldnt want it like all the time and only talk to you when he wants it but the rest of the time ignore you...i mean think about it this way...i think ppl would be way more happy like this but maybe its just because most of em arent in a hurry to find someone they actually want more than just there body i have found someone like this but it cant happen with him cause he lives to far i know him in person hes amazing i truely love him and he doesnt just say he loves me i can tell its deeper than that for him and for me but sometimes i get confused with all the flirting he tells me about with other girls then i think wonder if your truely in love can u still be atracted to others and my answer that i belive to be true is yes i belive there is no such thing as eyes for only one person unless your with that person and they never leave your sight but i could be wrong maybe there is suck a thing but i just havent had it yet like i said im only 15 i have awhile before i should care about this but its been bugging the s**t out of me.