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	Still today (Not formatted at all sorry)
	Still today (Not formatted at all sorry)


Well… I’m back. I am kind of becoming over life. Sometimes I feel dead inside. Like there’s nothing there. It’s like boredom, but I won’t eat for days. One I didn’t eat for a week. Usually it only lasts a day or two. People say I should get tested for bipolar... Maybe I should. Maybe I just need a fresh start on life. The (Second) quote of today.. “Without some goal and some effort to reach it, no one can live.” - Fyodor Dostoyevsky I just wanted to talk about this a little. I have goals. I want o be a doctor. I want to move. I want to travel. I want to get married and have children. I want to be happy. I put in a lot of effort, everyday. I try my hardest to do what I am ment to do, but it is never good enough. Sometimes, at school, we’ll be doing a practical thing in bio or physics or chem., and I won’t be able to do it. No matter how easy it seems. And I find myself holding back tears for the rest of the day. So I have goals, and I put in effort, so I can live. It’s just sometimes I feel like I’m actually just the shell of myself. Like a drug, it pulls you in, shows you a better life, Makes you feel free, pulls away your sanity. But you will never escape, no matter how hard you try. No, not until you're pried from deep within, A dark hand, helping you out of the light, Flipping your prospective upside down. Death is the only way to break out. Death is the only way to be alive again http://nightmarishdream.tumblr.com dreamheartnz · Sun Jun 06, 2010 @ 03:16am · 0 Comments


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Like a drug, it pulls you in, shows you a better life,
Makes you feel free, pulls away your sanity.
But you will never escape, no matter how hard you try.
No, not until you're pried from deep within,
A dark hand, helping you out of the light,
Flipping your prospective upside down.
Death is the only way to break out.
Death is the only way to be alive again

http://nightmarishdream.tumblr.com

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