No, I'm not turning into Ke$ha....
Just thought I'd get my point across faster this way. XD
I KNOW, I KNOW, EVERYTHING HAS ITS MOMENT FOR STUFF TO HAPPEN, AND I'M NOT OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL YET, I SHOULD FOCUS ON GETTING MY GRADES UP, I SHOULDN'T BE THINKING ABOUT GETTING MARRIED YET, I'M TOO YOUNG, I SHOULD FOCUS ON TODAY BECAUSE TOMMORROW WILL BE ITS OWN DAY, OHMAHGAH, SHUDDUP ALREADY, DAMN THE WORLD, I'M SCREWED, I SUCK AT LIFE, I HAVE NO SOUL, I'LL NEVER AMOUNT TO ANYTHING, I'LL NEVER GET TO MEET WILL SMITH OR HUGH JACKMAN, I KNOW THAT ALREADY.
But I just wanted to make sure...
Man...I complain about my life too much. I need to get over myself. I hurt others too much.
THAT'S ANOTHER THING I WANTED TO RANT ABOUT!
I also have a lot of emotional things going on...IF IT'S NOT PHYSICAL, THEN IT'S EMOTIONAL! MY GOODNESS I'M FALLING APART AT THE SEAMS!
It's nobody's fault. It's mine. I'm too proud to admit a lot of things...
And I'm too scared to speak what I wish I could say.
And I'm too angry to fix myself.
And I talk big most of the time.
I'm a coward. I'm selfish. I'm a box that's ready to explode...
I hurt others. I love others. I hate others. I can't get enough of others.
You confused yet? Cuz I am. I'm just a stupid girl who thinks too much and does nothing to make things better.
But Imma change that. I know I'll make everything better.
I just have to start somewhere. I have an idea where I should.
But first...
I have to pray.
((WOW! LONGEST JOURNAL ENTRY EEEVVVEEERRRRR!!!))
