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It was storming that night, rain, lighting, the hole lot & it didn’t look like it was letting up any time soon, from the way it look it looked it may last till late morning, it didn’t madder to me much nothing did right now, I was in bed that night, the room a little warm for my liking, but it didn’t madder to me, like I said nothing did & besides Ferki & Rosie needed to get warm & dry any way since they got caught in it no thanks to Vanguard outburst tonight, scared poor Rosie half to death to the point where she ran outside in the oncoming storm, Ferki went after her to bring her back & now there both in front of the fireplace trying to get warm & dry. Rosie’s still really shook up about what happen, She’s in-between Ferki’s paw’s press up agents his chest asleep, Ferki’s asleep to, everyone in the whole castle was but me. It wasn’t because it was to warm from me in my room (even though it was) it was because… because… I don’t know… because maybe I was too worried, anxious even, much as I wanted I couldn’t go to sleep, no madder how hard I tried I just couldn’t. I tossed & turned for a long time with no luck. I finely gave up on sleep, I just had to much on my mind right now to sleep. I threw the covers off & got up, I grab my silk rob that’s hanging up on my full length mirror & put it on, I look at myself in the mirror real quick, I’m warring a deep sapphire blue number, it was a bit reviling but nothing to reviling just reviling enough. I go & let out a *sigh* & head out the door & close it behind me, I wanted to just walk…I walked & I walked & I walked, letting my feet take me were ever, I continued to walk deep in thought, not realizing were I was till I knottiest that I was walking down the northwest hallway, It was a bit dark down the hall way, with torches hear & there lighting the way & on either side of the hall was armor of my people of long ago, & tapestry with are clan’s insignia on them “ two crescent moons back to back & a howling wolfs below & finely a sword behind the wolf’s head, & not just any swore either. It’s the sword of Draco’s ancestors Dracula, the sword looks like any other sword except the hilt of it looks like a bat hanging upside down with its wings outstretched & in its claws it holds a gem & not just any old gem ether a blood red gem knowing as the Vampire’s Heart” the rarest of the rare. Rarer even then the Wolfs eye, it’s hard to believe I know but its truth. You can ask Draco himself he has the sword even to this day. Draco… His room down hear you know, Draco’s. I let out a deep *sigh* & walk down to his room… I hesitate by the time I get to his room. I stand there for a bit before knocking on his door thinking back to what Wolf said, reminding me that it’s been over five years since Tidus disappeared & is proclaimed dead, he said that I knew it, he knew it, everyone did & he reminded me that I should all ready had had a new mate by now as the law state’s my brother stand up for me then & reminds him it was are great, great grandfather that writ the law over a thousand years ago so he had no right to remind nobody of what the law says. He then ask Vanguard to leave but he didn’t go quiet, Vanguard said that this was not over & that he WOULD be back for me no madder what happened. Kakkorot would not let that happen he would keep me save no madder what happened now I knew were this was going & if I didn’t find a new mate soon it was going to be a all out war. I knew what I had to do that night but I couldn’t. Could I? & hear I am now in front of Draco’s room. I still couldn’t do it not to him, but what chose did have now if I didn’t choose a mate now all will be lost… I let out a *sigh* & I go & knock on his door & open it a bit… Draco are you awake….. There was no answer so I go in & close the door behind me & call again…Draco?... Still nothing I *sigh* & look around the room & I see that he’s in the bathroom, he must be taking a shower cause I hear water going. I decided to wait for him I knew he wouldn’t mind, he & I had gotten closer over the last five years. It use to be that he was a bit of a rouge wandering hear & there but when he heard about what had happened to his brother & how I was in despair over it he came back home, he still go off on his own now & again to where I don’t know he’s all way been a bit mysterious & dark even but he has a good heart & has all ways been there for me. Ever since Tidus disappeared over five years ago he’s been by my side keeping vigil over me & never leaving my side. The first two years I wasn’t myself no madder what I did or said it wasn’t me I would wake up in the middle of the night screaming & calling out for Tidus, there was even times I would wander about the castle grounds looking for him till Draco had to come find me & bring me inside for the night,& on though nights he would stay with me to keeping vigil over me. My brother saw what was happening & saw that I was in no condition to lead the clan so he took over for me as not only as my second in command but as leader of the Crescent Moon clan. Even to this day he still leading for waiting till I feel that I can reclaim role as the true leader of are people. I go over & look out the window watching the storm & waiting for Draco to come out, as I’m waiting for him I end up lost in thought. I remember the times Draco & I spent together over the last five years even though I wasn’t there the first two year he was, he was all ways quite not talking much but all way keeping a eye on me in the first two years, & then the next three years we grew close to one another without knowing it we became friends, then we ended up bonding to one another & now this…. I was so deep in thought that I didn’t even hear Draco come out of the bathroom, I was so lost in space thinking about him & Tidus , think how much Draco look like Tidus in so many ways & in others not so much like him. It hurt so much thinking about Tidus & what I was about to do, I just couldn’t do that to Tidus I just couldn’t, I love him too much to even think about what I was going to do, but what other chose did I have if I didn’t choose Draco now a war would start & I couldn’t let that happen to my people. Even if I did chose Draco now Vanguard would still want a war, he said he would be back for me no madder what happened & he would to. Vanguard is all ways true to his word & even if I did pick Draco as my new mate Vanguard would kill him just to get to me, he would stop at nothing to get what he wants, & what he wants is ME…. So you see there’s going to be a war one way or another….. Draco comes up behind me & places he his hands on my shoulders, it wakes me up from my daydream….. Vixen what are you doing here this late in the night, & why are u crying?... I hadn’t realized I was crying till he said something… Vixen? Vixen baby what’s the madder you know you can tell me. Draco I, I… I can’t do this I just can’t do this to him, or you I just can’t. I love him still Draco, but I love you to I just can do this to him I just can’t do to him I just can’t…. Vixen what are you talking about? Tidus, I’m talking about Tidus Draco. I still love him & I love you to how can I chose between the two of you when I’m still in love with Tidus. He go’s & turns me around & pulls me close to him holding me tight…. Vixen, Vixen calm down pleas calm down…I go & put my arms around him holding him close… Draco I’m sorry but I can’t do it. I know baby, I know it’ll be OK I promise it’ll all be OK you’ll see it’ll be fine. He’s out there Draco I just know he is, if I go & do this & he comes back, what will happen? I don’t know Vixen, all I know is if he out there he would want this for us I just know he would, & not just for us but for all of the clan, he would want you to be happy now even though we’re together now. But Vanguard. What about Vanguard, there’s nothing he can do to stop us from being together I won’t let it happen, & if he want a war then he’s going to get one because I won’t give you up without a fight you can count on it. Draco no…… he kisses me before I get the chance to finish, I was taken aback by this & all I could do was let him do it to me, we finely pull apart & he go’s & whisper’s something into my ear, & my eyes go wide with surprise at what he’s asking me, I go & close my eyes & nod… Are you sure you want this Vixen you know I’ve never ask anything of you before, & if you don’t want this then we don’t have do it, it’s you to you Vixen I’m letting you decide… I go & kiss him…. Draco I’m not going to lose you now. Not now not ever, it’s bad enough that I lost Tidus, I’m not going to lose you to. Not to Vanguard, not to no one. I love you Draco, you know I do, & I think you’re right, I to think Tidus would want us to be together no madder what happens now & if Vanguard wants a war then I’ll give him one cause I’m not going with him without a fight. *Sigh* Then so be it. You truly are the most beautiful were-creature out there, no wonder both me & my brother fell in love with you. But are you absolutely sure about this, are you really sure you ready for this? Yes I’m sure I’m ready, I know I am. *Sigh* Very well then my love come with me… He go’s & takes me over to his 4 poster canopy curtain bed, he the put’s his hand on my shoulders again & slides my rob & nightgown off, with it being silk it came off real smooth, he then kisses me one last time then picks me up in his arms & put’s me on the bed very gently, like I would break or something, he then go around the bed & closes all of the curtains & then removes his towel & crawls into bed with me & covers us up. He then leans over me & kisses me once again. I could feel him press up agents me I could feel all of him rubbing agents me, I was ready he knew it & so did I…. That night we did more than sleep together…….
“The next morning “