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Missa Defunctorum
praise the lost souls, it'll set yours free
Repeat.
Mood: Aloof.
Song: Messes of Men - Mewithoutyou

I think I'm just doomed to fail,
Fail fail fail.
Lose myself.
Find myself.
Lose myself again.
Repeat.
Repeat.

Life is a pattern,
And everyday I want to break this pattern,
But I never do and I never will.
What have I done to myself?
Why did it happen to me?

A routine,
A system,
And if I fall out of place,
I quickly jump back in.

My wings are clipped and I cannot fly,
But how I long to fly,
One day, maybe, I'll make wings of wax,
And just like him, I'll fly too close to the sun,
The freedom will go to my head,
The taste of little air will feel surreal,
and I'll go so close it melts,
My wings of wax melt,
and I'll fall to the ground,
Dead, surely, dead.

I do not exist,
Faithfully insist.

ldksfsdf.
I'm going to lose myself.

This isn't healthy,
This isn't normal,
What is it, whatever is wrong,
With me, with you, with humanity.

I've always longed to be an artist,
But all the good one's have something terribly disgusting about them;
Their insides are so bleak, disgusting, disfigured,
I don't want to be an artist, I don't want to be anything,
I just want to live live live,
Breathe breathe breatheeee,

But you arms are wrapped around my neck,
And you give it a somewhat rough squeeze,
Please please please, I plea,
I just want to believeeeee
That this isn't true, this is all in my mind,
But I can't escape and there's no way
To make time run faster, and faster I swearrrr,
But it doesn't matter, no it'll never matter if I don't try to care.

Fix it, Fix it, FIX IT.
Just fix it already,
Fix what? Why are you asking me?
I haven't a clue, what do you mean what do I mean?
If I knew what I meant wouldn't I have explained?
No, no no, it's not possible to go insane.

you're the one that's nuts,
I'm just a little girl,
Free in my own world, without anything to harm me.
You fix it, it's your problem,
'Cause I don't have any, you see.

DFSLFSDF
DON'T YELL AT ME
sdfsf just go away.
I'll find another day to play, I swear, okay?
no no no, don't say it's not okay,
I promise you, I'm a good girl and I'll get right on top of things.
sdfkljldsfsdf
STOP.

k that was weird.





 
 
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