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What is love anyway?
An inferiour emotion?
Where all you do is think about someone special night and day?
Even when its over between you and you've been around the block in your mind with conflicting thoughs and betraying details?

So why does this hurt still after now?
Have i moved on as much as i think i have?
I guess no when i'm doing what i so prescribed

And sleep deprivation makes it clear in my mind

10 days till my birthday, 17 till St Valentines
And i'll that i wish is that on that day she'd be mine all mine

I've been up 36 hours and i'm crying
And slowly i feel like my humanity is dying
And i'll see her face and her endless beauty
And slowly i crumble under fates own cruelty

I'd never thought that i would love someone so prue
And no in my mind you will never be a ******** whore

Because i believe in you and in gods will
And i dont know why that is so clear to me still

And i cant do nothing without some link to her
What the hell is my mind saying to me somehow?
I ask you my peers

But just when my mind set is sorted
I blow it up again with some stupid no-brain thought
And yet think that if i didnt i would not be saying this

Again.

But i mean it this time
My mind is sorted
My brain is set this time and i know its early
But i have to wish a happy valentines to the one that i love
She should know who she is

And i'm scared that i'll be hurt but where there is no pain there is no learning
And where there is no pain there is no yearning
Just Happy Valentines to my love x