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Alexithymia.
I think thats how you spell it. My social skills teacher said it was a kind of sickness where you would cry, but had no clue of why you were crying. I think I have it. I feel like an idiot today... as if that thought ever changed. I have always felt that way, no matter what the occasion was because no matter what I have to mess something up. Thats pretty much how its been for a while... always feeling that I shouldnt do anything because I was scared of messing it up. People call me lazy... really, I'm just scared. I hate when i f**k up because some one is there just waiting to criticize me. I cant believe this world is so f**ked up! I mean everyday something happens and why cant it always be good. I want everything on the news to be good and everything at school to be good. No more bad news for me... I dont believe that theres much more pressure that I can take. Anyone that wamts to bring me pain can just go f**k their couch! UGH!!!