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(Demons)
LonelYness Within ME

A day from start to end
Nobody can comprehend
The life that I survive on
It’s not what you expect…

As I head to school in the morn
I hope for a better day.
But why can’t that just happen today
Why won’t thing just brighten up?

I get bullied,
Robbed, and beaten up…
And no one ever helps me.
Not one friend

My heart stays in the shallow end
At lunch I eat alone…
No one to talk to
No one to be with
Why am I Like This…

Views just never were the same
As well as my acting to them…
I just can’t form
That type of person…
From Me.
There’s nothing special about me…..

Just something I can’t believe
Why am I seen as this?
A monster that can’t be kissed!
There’s just nothing to understand…

My Life is just sO lonely….
Even when I try to reach out,
I’m just slapped in the face...

The storm is my place…
It follows me everywhere
Drenching me in tears…

Night comes as I walk home.
It’s cold being alone.
I wish to find the answer
Why I’m always resented
THE FEELINGS NOT RIGHT!

Day by Day
Start to END
The beginning of my life
To the end where I LIE
Dead…
But that’s what I don’t want to be
Searching to find
The answer to
MY LIFE…

It’s just not enough to know
Why I am hated so….
I don’t like living like this
Lonely with all that s**t!...
There must be a way to change it!

Fire just burns my life
Like Darkness turns to light
Shows the hatred in my soul
That I should soak it cold
But that leaves…me still
SO LONELY!..

Why does this loneliness
Fill the Pain I Have?..
Killing it In The Dark
So Changing The Way Things ARE.
I just want to
Make a Difference!
In my Pitch black
Life of Night!!!
It’s just Chaos
Just Chaos

The way I am…
Why am I such a demon…
The loneliness binds me
By the feeling of
HEART
How Can I Suppress It All
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Why am I embodied in this..
This Cruel life of suffering?
The Lonelyness Withink ME
(I wish taht I could just be loved!)