I clenched my chest; trying to recover from each blow that was thrown upon me.
All the sudden everything made sense.
My instincts were right.
If you wanted her why waste my time?
I do not blame her..

I mean..I adore you..
With my whole being..
The thoughts strummed through my mind like the strings of the guitar you once played for me.
The meadow scene filled the screen of my tv. Bella staring in Edward's eyes and I sob.
That night at the tennis court..I guess that meant nothing..right?
All your lies..your deception..
You think I didn't know??
I just kept it to myself..til I had the proof..
The ring you gave me..I know who it really belongs to..
The wedding band..I know who really paid for it..
The promise ring..
I know it all.
I know for a fact you when to see your ex when you were with "Tom."
I know you still emailed her..
When you swore up and down to me..to my heart..that you weren't speaking to her..

You made me believe you loved me..
You told me I was all that mattered to you..
That you wanted to be my husband..
You wanted us to have a family..

Was that a lie too?
Was this about revenge?

You..my King of Pain..

I sunk to the floor of my shower as the water slowly made it from boiling to freezing.
I know about the missing persons report..

I started to weep again.
Trembling.
How could you?
You broke my heart worse than anyone I have ever let near me ...
You lied to my Father..
You deceived us all.

I am sure you feel pretty good about yourself..
I sure hope you do.
I can't stop crying.
The pain you caused me will never heal..
I never want to love again.
I have died today..

I have not the heart left to slay your name.
Even though it is very much my in my favor to..
I tell only what I know..
And to the rest, it is none of their business..


I hope you change..for your sake..
And you find all the happiness you seek.
As for me?
I bow my head.
Don't worry, darling..
I will shut the door behind me..

Emily will find a better place to fall asleep
She belongs to fairy tales that i could never be
The future haunts with memories that i could never have
But hope is just a stranger wondering how it got too bad

I die each time you look away
My heart, my life will never be the same
This love will take my everything
One breath, one touch will be the end of me

You could be the final straw that brings me back to earth
Ever-waiting airports full of the love that you deserve
Wishing i could find a way to wash away the past
Knowing that my heart will break, but at least the pain will last

I die each time you look away
My heart, my life will never be the same
This love will take my everything
One breath, one touch will be the end of me

Emily will find a better place to fall asleep
Maybe she will save me in the oceans of her dream
And maybe someday live
Maybe someday live
Maybe someday live




Goodbye..
"Please tell my wife I loved her more than life itself."