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gave up the only person in my life that mattered, because she's actively pushing me away, actually ignoring me.

SO, THAT'S JUST HOW WONDERFUL MY LIFE IS.. THE ONLY PERSON I'VE FELT THIS STRONGLY ABOUT, CAN'T STAND TO BE AROUND ME..

..ahhaaaaahaaahhaaaaa...

That's just how things go, I suppose. It hurts so bad, that I'm numb, and I still feel the horrible pain of it.. I'm in so much pain, I can feel pain through my numbness, that's ******** ridiculous..

I know I'll probably regret this later.. but right now, it needs to be done. I want to cry.. but I'm in so much pain I can't. It's blinding pain.. I think I'm in so much pain that I'm actually NUMB from it, because my mind can't process it.. but I bet she's fine..

She's strong, I"m sure she's fine and dandy.. Neena is pissed off as hell right now, but ******** 'er, I'm single now, and miserable, and I hate my ******** life. I have nothing now.. my hope, is gone. My dreams? Shattered.. I'm just.. broken.

I'm.. broken. .. . . .

She was my world, and now she's gone.. my life is now meaningless. Ready to get into things that are very dangerous and stupid, things that will probably kill me, because now, I have nothing..

Man with nothing to lose has no fear..