rwamlrwarlamrwal im gonna write my random stuff ehre since no one looks here ...well not the peoeple that i acutelad dont wnat ot see this,sopepepwimliek being asad noob wtf mang.idotn get anything anymore :c itsliek superlame. ihatehow peopel say one thing thne do anyothiner. i hate when people DOTN FKEN REPLY TO YOU. if it was liek an emotion i cna usdersatdn but if i wrote a whole question yeah i expect you to respond....WHYDONTYOURESPONDwtfmlfwan ihatehow people change =/. i really wihsithngs could stay the same sometihngs. ihateemotions. imfeelignusper emotional rihgtnow like wtf i start crying over reallly small shet now. idk maybe im "holding in to much" lfmaww jajiba said that otme. imsostupidmangwtfi feel like cuddling with someone and just crying and telignthem everything.idonthavneaynormeoanyoremtho. idotnthink i ever relt so lonley tisyear yet. i wastedos much tisue this week. ihaet this week. i hate it so much. i wantto go back in time a weekfrom now..i wouldhcange so many things so none of this would be happening now. iddkdidkddimisssomanypoeplenadidkthiersonormal maybe imjstu bieng stupid cause im th eoly one sad. why cant i just be normal and let things go. i feel like an anoyance =/. idk iguessi need otstop buggin them cuas ethey obviously dont care. why does it have ot be so awrkd. imissyou. im so retarded ireally need to just say everything somewhere ;x soyeah idk no noes evne gonna see this but igeus thats for thebetter? lmwaow ireally hate complain i dont nwat anyone to worry about me.whycantibeindependednt :c ireallyneedsomeonerihgtnowbutidontwnatoanoyyouguys.imntoevne surhwy im wriingthis all. i cant tell if im feelig better. maybeimtryingtogetatttention.imselfish.ihatemyselfrightnow.whydoihaveotruin everything....why dop i keeptriyngtocovereverything bysmiling and laughing. itdoesntwork afterawhile. ionlygetsadderlateronwheimalone.wtfiswrongwithmeeeeeee. facedesk.i fkenahteyouwhydo youeneda mkae it so awrkd ifoyodntn owat otalkto me thne jsut say so. franklythisishurting me more.dyouevnenotice?betyoudont.kaydeepbreaths....iamconcidinering givingup.youobisouyldotnnwoatotalktome. andi monly makignmyslef look like a fool doyouknow I NEVER MESSAGE ANYONE?i lawys wait for them to messageme.doyouknwhwomanytimes i tried otstart conversation? only for youto ignoremeafter.ihopeyoufeelfrickenspeceial.guessnot since idontenvesee why imtrying so hard anyomre.youchanged..oryourjustactingthiswaytowardme. andnoimnot onlysadbecuase ofTHAt. ihavefknenfamil isusesto. wtf ihgt. i mighthave to leave and change schools. you were theonlyone itold.itrustedyouwhydidithavetoendlikethis.pelasetlelmethisisonlabreak.. .=/
ijustgotmyheartbroken.dont yourelive ireallyliekdyou.didyoknowyo ureally really hurt me?.guessthe feeling wasnt a mutual....you said we woeudlalways be frined and that youll always be thie rofrme...whereare oynow?...
i feel liek an idiot for evenbeingthatsad. but ifirealytihnk aboutit...i can seewhyiwas.or still am =/ ireallydontknowwhat ot do ...this mighbemea butirealyl hope they dont get to close. i seriouly cant even imaingehow sadill be....ihatehow itwas so normal for liek 2hour sonyl for it to get messdupagian. and yeah ithink itsmyfaulkt
omgogm isimply LOVE how i didntcarelikeadayagothneihad tihs dream andtodaywastotaly bad and argg ifeelsosadagan. i have problems. ineedsmeontotalktomang noone feking listenstome =/ i giveup. im ntoevnejokingitsosad.why cantijusthaveoneniceperosnwhowoud justaskmeifiwasoke.whyiwassad.imalwaysthatpersonoke.andnoimnot trying ot sound liek cockyorwahtver=/but i meanreally...imsofuceknsad imcryingaigna. andiknowimgonnatotalregret cryingthisjmuch liekidoalready. butidk imsosad.itslike argifeellke iruinedeverything likeEVERYTHING howmangfriendships didi ilosethisyear.
ohmangjsuwhenithough iwas better imstartingto findithardtobreath=/ and i havethis weihd in my chest. lame. lame. lame.
god it hurtslikeshehthwhenyou fucnkeningignoremyouknow. imsorryifididnsomeshettoyou butrteallllyyy. andseirouylifotu dont want emto careasmuch.divorcme.now. thisislmaeidk why imwringi trhis much about ONE GUY. itscusaeimretatd </3 /dies
lfamwoawmflawmicanetell ifihatehimornot.weeeeeee
btwmystepdads abithc.belockedmycomputers.omfglamehoppehe********************************************
somthing.sighsihgihsgihgsosad.ithinkisitlllikesomestupidguwhowonttakltome.butidont really thing ido at the samtime =/... hmm.
somthingit hurtssomuchandsomthings i just dont give ashet.
why did i write all that =/ ...kayidoknow LOOOOOOL FML. ._.
imjealous of a gr 9er
fornoreaons
fmlwtfishapenngotme....
i bet most of you cant read that. :] thats why i wrote it that way most of my close friends probley cant but they most likley will give up 1/10 way LOL i love you if you read that all.
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People do change, but not everyone does. You are unique and you are always yourself, that makes you stand out and different from everyone else. The reason you hide how your feeling by smiling and laughing, is because not alot of people show they care if your alright or not, and you just want to bottle it in cuz you dont know who cares about you or wants to see your happy. You feel if you dont show how your really feeling, you wont have to worry about.
As i told you before my friend, if you ever need to vetn or talk about anything at all. Im here and I'll listen and help you. -hugs tightly-