... if brandi leaves... i don't even see the point of staying around anymore.. theres always layna... but shes taken forever, yea i kno the saying theres other fishes in the sea... but this fish only loves one and im always going to feel guilty with another person i love brandi, and if she leaves ill have nothing... i don't think i can wait like 5 or so years for her to come back... hell she could be engaged by that time... i dunno im too attached... i love her and i never want to be without her but that fear of being without her soon to come maybe
whats next after shes gone i don't want to live a live without brandi, but i also don't to leave my life without brandi

so idk