My life sucks...I have many people who call themselves my friends, but the don't even notice if they ditch me. I scare people, because the turn around and I'm suddenly there, when I have actually been there since the beginning of the conversation. I have a wall-more like a fortress actually. Years of being in a small class of vindictive bitches with no friends or good things as buffers has built these battlements. Now, no matter how hard I try, I cannot step "outside" on my own...I am like rapunzel with no hair. No one is willing to be patient enough to help me. It is damn depressing. I am 18, kissed a guy once, have never had a bf. Never been drunk(I have the potential to become rlly addicted to that). But the way I feel scares the s**t out of me, and no one cares enough to rlly listen...on the rare occasions that they do, they interupt with thier own problems and don;t ever start listening again. I have tried counciling, but they don't listen either. One got up and walked away, she didn't even realize I was talking to her! WTF??? The other one insisted in having "Family meetings". Not helpful at all, my mother would interupt me with her own take on a subject, and the woman took it as my answer and went on to another topic....fml...HELP!!!
Kia_gra · Sat Sep 19, 2009 @ 06:56am · 0 Comments |