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honestly i ave no i dea where to go to from here. i kno i always say i wont let anyone down and i'll take them away from a place that'll make them safe and away from the hazards of life, but i just wonder if i can actually be the non-little girl i was for a very short period of time i am now trying to recapture, but can i really at 15? i'd like an opinion on it but i know that if i ask directly i'll jst get lectured on how it iznt impossible and that i need to realize i actually am a great person in people's eyes. and yet i cant see how.... i kind of wish i knew wether or not im still the little girl that use to feed the squirels crackers with my daddy and wondered where my "mother" waz..... or if im the mature 15 year old that iz able to sit through an interview for a scholarship for college even though i am only in the ninth grade. but i guess i just need to look inside myself and find my answer and not think so much. but are people who are the thinkers ever stop thinking? i hope not beacuz then i wouldnt have anything to do when im away from my friends and family smile


to the ones who kno me the best... i'd like ur opinion on who i am to you. i just wish i could get an opinion from the one who gets quiet on me over the phone. the one that will be in my future as the one closest says to me very often but doubts the theory.