weird, hm? haven't written one in a while. at least not a talky one.
basically, i'm pretty chill right now. i have all the "normal" anxieties, you know, like worrying about going off to college, wondering if i'll be able to find a job, things like that. and i'm feeling a little angry about my relative's seeming indifference that i just had one of the most important ceremonies in mah life and they don't seem to care. it's a little aggravating, but i suppose we have learned not really to expect much from them, so whatevs.
but other than that! i got a new phone today, after three or so years. it supports pictures so i'm like, yay! my aunt and uncle are flying me out to new york for a week this summer to hang out with them. and i don't have to get a job.
i guess, also, i'm a little frustrated and lonesome. i can go for weeks without getting a text from people i call friends, they never talk to me otherwise, when i know that i am good at listening and cheering people up. at least, that's what i've been told.
this is turning ranty.
i'm pretty glad i've graduated high school. i mean, i loved going! the classes were a lot of fun, and while i mostly keep my head down and listen, i had a lot of laughs! band was fun too. but i was just tired of being ignored. like, people would say that we are friends, but somehow i think that "friends" would actually start up conversations themselves, or wouldn't forget about you after someone else came up and started talking to them. i am sure that they would like to know what was going on in my life, just as i expressed interest in theirs. to no avail, of course.
i'm not saying that i have no friends; i made a couple of very good friends. but you know? i'm just glad i left.
and when i go to college i am sure i will make lots of BFFs.
mmm.
sorry. now i sound all emo. i'm a happy person, really! ha ha.
oh well. i am going to go do puzzles now! or read manga. OR BOTH.
loves!
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