I am really bored, I have been killing garlic and fluffs all day, and still I am not satisfied with the uneventful day. I really am so bored, I am going to graduate soon from high school, And I wonder to myself, Is this it? question
My high school life has been interesting, but now that I have a best friend, whom I fell in love with, It's all coming to an end. First I though what my new frenemie said Was true, That i have no friends, but then I realize that he is the one that has no friends. I have alot, now that I stopped acting anoying to people that don't need to be treated that way. Yet I feel sad because, I never found anyone special. The only girl that is actually interesting is my best friend, I like her so much, but she does not like me back, I don't blame her, I am an Idiot, and I make alot of mistakes. gonk
I told her what I feel for her, I am pathetic, I can't really talk to her in school because our friends don't leave us alone, and when they do I don't got the guts and it really sucks, for me that is. My best friends has told me many things that I can never tell to anyone because that will betray her trust and all I really want is her happiness. I love her emotionally, although she is physically hot. All I care is about her beautiful emotions, she does not see them as beautiful, but I can see her emotions, so pure. I know writing this instead of talking to her is pathetic, but there is nothing else I can do,High School is almost over for me and her, time has ran out
And I really have been so foolish, I should have love her from the beginning, not ignored that emotion, or commit emotional suicide, which is the worst suicide there is. The reason I am Zero is because I want to feel nothing, know no one, and just disappear.
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