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Well on my side of the world things aren't so great and I've been really hurting myself (not literally) lately....I've just been soo lost and confused and alone. So I've been writing to my friend and see what she could do to help me out but some how I don't feel comfortable to tell her anymore how I am. I mean I have friends to help me out if i need help.. but are they really my friends question We don't even hang out with each other... every time i say lets of hang out some weekend all i get is an "okay..." I don't know what time you want but then it's left to that and I don't hear anything after that... It makes me sad that no one i know wants to be with me... I have no friends after all emo ....
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Next I've been skipping school well they are excused but that's not the point. I don't really want to go back... sweatdrop I know that a don't have that much time left in school so don't be a baby and DeaL! Well, I wish I could... but i can't I Hate It stressed stressed stressed stressed Ever since I entered that school I've hated it! So know I'm all depressed and junk.... so whatever... I'll let the school win after all what am I really? ... Nothing.... It just comes back to my past I AM NOTHING.... "Worthless" "Better off Dead!" That's what I remember her saying.... I fail at everything I do.. there's nothing I am good at not one and it bothers me. Why am I here if I am not wanted by anyone?
Am I being selfish?
Someone Please tell me!
*sigh*
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I'm being told that I'm really mature for my age more that most like a very wise women so I'm told... and I don't get it... Honestly what am I soo mature about all I say is the facts and how I would deal with the situation... I thought i was rather Immature if you ask me ...
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Death...
So many times it has crossed my mind
But being a coward I am
I cannot do it
Even if I want it SO badly... I don't want it...
Make sense?
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Well i was listening to the lion king CD and It help stop my crying form earlier today and well I am a bit better but I will not say that I'm cured yet... Depression is such a hassle.. xp
OH and I might get a puppy >w<
Maybe that will help end all this darkness that haves cover my heart.... hmmm....


that's all i have time for now I might right again tomrrow and soeon share some short poems I have written so far.. 3nodding 3nodding 3nodding

~Momo

p.s.
DFTBA!!