R.o.m.e.o s_ave me
They're -trying to tell me how to f-e-e-l
This l.♥.v.e is diff__icult
But it's __real
Don't be afraid;;
We'll make it outta this m.e.s.s
It's a l.♥.v.e__s-t-o-r-y
B*a*b*y just say ~yes.
Three months today is how long I've been with the idiot man that I love.
xD
Sometimes I don't understand how I love him.
He can be a total p***k, a flirt, and arrogant.
But at the same time he can be so sweet, funny and all around amazing.
I had actually only met him four times when we got together.
Our entire friendship had been based off texting. 2am texts, "are you awake?" and talking until 5 or 6am...texts when he was hurting or needed someone to talk with. Pissing each other off purposely. I saw the side of him that not everyone else sees. I never saw the side of him that everyone does see...so I'm still learning who he is with everyone else.
If I didn't know the side of him that I do, I wouldn't be with him.
But I know who he really is and I know he's hands-down the best guy I could ever get, and I'm perfectly happy with him.
I do get jealous and distressed but hell, I always get over it because I know he loves me.
I go against everything I used to stand for, with him.
I said I'd never believe a guy if they told me they wanted to marry me..or if they said "forever".
He did say we were gonna get married. I never even brought it up, he just said, "Yeah, when we're married..."
And I had a moment of shock. xD
The other day, I was thinking...he asked what about, and I said everything, too much to tell, it'd take forever to tell.
He said "We have forever." But then in a way ruined it and said "Well we actrually only have 15 minutes of lunch left since we're at school but otherwise we have forever."
I believe every little thing.
If we ever end, Idk what I'm gonna do.
I've been in love once before but it was first love, it was different from this.
Yesterday when I talked to him about the flirting and stuff he promised he loved me, promised he'd never leave me for anyone..ever.
I wonder if he has any idea how much that means to me.
I'm so scared of love.
And how can I fall this hard in 3 months? It feels like so much longer.
It's so weird.
And I'm too young.
But whatever.
This is love and I'm happy, I hope it doesn't end.
Otherwise in my life...
Skipped Biology five times.
My grades are pretty damn rad rightnow.
I'm sick as a dog.
I love my friends so much and wouldn't trade them for the world. Every one of them.
I get to go shopping soon!
I'm craving a The Academy Is... concert like ASAP because I miss those boys and I miss their music and I miss Beckett. xDD
I GOT MY BELLYBUTTON PIERCED! =DDD
Anywho.
I'm sick and icky.
I mainly write just to rant hahah I know no one reads.
If you do read, comment. XD
I'mma go like collapse back to sleep now.
Song of teh day; The Good Left Undone by Rise Against.
"All because of you, I believe in angels."
xoxo--Autumn
[&&All_ that's Left to *Do* is ~Run]
