I am currently freaking out. Not just freaking out, really. More like ********. And that is very bad because I need to control my stress level in order to be a functioning human being. If only, if only.
So, the instigator of my current state of mental distress is college. I can't take any more of this college s**t. It's driving me insane. First, I didn't get ino the school I actually wanted to go to. However, because I am so desperate to have a place to go, I am willing to settle. And now that I have come to that point, I discover that my second choice, if you will, IS OUT OF HOUSING! I just found out that I was accepted, like, a week ago...and the dorms are already full. I don't want to live in a ******** apartment. That is just too much stress for me in what will already be a very stressful stage of my life. I've talked to a few friends, and they're out of the dorms too, so maybe we can double up on an apartment or something. Either that, or I'll have to scramble to find somewhere else to go, which will just stress me out even more.
Plus, along with this housing dilemma, there is also all the other things I have to do for college, namely financial aid forms and the like. The more I think about it, the less I want to go. I was almost excited to go to college when this year began, but now I'm so sick of dealing with all of this s**t that I just want to move into the basement and become some kind of slug, preferrably a pothead, because then, at least, I'll be in a positive mood all the time.
All of this college stuff, plus the stress that musical brings on top of it. Some of you may remember that I was in my school's production of Grease last year, and that it was a very stressful and time consuming activity. This year is no different. We are doing West Side Story, and I have a bigger role than I did last year, so I have to learn lines, memorize songs, and practice dances all in between finalizing college plans. The musical opens in about six weeks, and we haven't finished anything, either. We're reallly behind and this is just an other stress on my long list of stress.
So, yeah. I'm losing it. I'm going to be driven to suicide if I don't center myself and take control of all of the negative chakra that is surrounding me. ******** MY LIFE.
Sorry for that, darling Gaians. I know that I'm not usually this...er...nuts on my journal. But I needed to get this off of my chest, and I knew that you wouldn't mind. Thank you for listening. Or, reading, technically.
Love y'all!
Peiji~ heart
So, the instigator of my current state of mental distress is college. I can't take any more of this college s**t. It's driving me insane. First, I didn't get ino the school I actually wanted to go to. However, because I am so desperate to have a place to go, I am willing to settle. And now that I have come to that point, I discover that my second choice, if you will, IS OUT OF HOUSING! I just found out that I was accepted, like, a week ago...and the dorms are already full. I don't want to live in a ******** apartment. That is just too much stress for me in what will already be a very stressful stage of my life. I've talked to a few friends, and they're out of the dorms too, so maybe we can double up on an apartment or something. Either that, or I'll have to scramble to find somewhere else to go, which will just stress me out even more.
Plus, along with this housing dilemma, there is also all the other things I have to do for college, namely financial aid forms and the like. The more I think about it, the less I want to go. I was almost excited to go to college when this year began, but now I'm so sick of dealing with all of this s**t that I just want to move into the basement and become some kind of slug, preferrably a pothead, because then, at least, I'll be in a positive mood all the time.
All of this college stuff, plus the stress that musical brings on top of it. Some of you may remember that I was in my school's production of Grease last year, and that it was a very stressful and time consuming activity. This year is no different. We are doing West Side Story, and I have a bigger role than I did last year, so I have to learn lines, memorize songs, and practice dances all in between finalizing college plans. The musical opens in about six weeks, and we haven't finished anything, either. We're reallly behind and this is just an other stress on my long list of stress.
So, yeah. I'm losing it. I'm going to be driven to suicide if I don't center myself and take control of all of the negative chakra that is surrounding me. ******** MY LIFE.
Sorry for that, darling Gaians. I know that I'm not usually this...er...nuts on my journal. But I needed to get this off of my chest, and I knew that you wouldn't mind. Thank you for listening. Or, reading, technically.
Love y'all!
Peiji~ heart
