Hello Journal. It's been awhile. I feel I've neglected you a bit. I'm sorry. But lets see... what's been happening in my life recently? Well... It's the begining of the second week of my second term in college. I'm getting my degree in animation. I've got myself a boyfriend I am very much in love with, a roommate I am becoming good friends with, have been living far away from home and becoming more independant, am currently jobless, which is not good, and have discovered that I am, in fact, not as weird as I thought. I think I'm going to group life into a few segments so I can elaborate better...
Romance
Ah... my love... Valcos. At least here that is him. What can I say about him? Well he's a lot shorter than me, but everyone is. He makes up for it in... other departments. wink Haha, he's very sweet, the sweetest actually. Completely devoted to me, which is how it should be. It was a bit of an unexpected thing... well, after a year of being single, I decided it was time enough and decided to get back out there. Well... that's not entirely true... There were a number of men I could choose from and when I realized they had feelings for me was when I realized it was time for me to fall in love again. Valcos was a surprise as, he was sort of in my 'best friend' category and thought he didn't think anything more of me, but he slipped up a few times and it became obvious that he was ready for me to love him. There was one other too that I was seriously considering, top two... But he was going away for awhile and it would have made coupling difficult... in retrospect I am glad I chose Valcos. My other option... though he even tells me how lucky he is to have a great caring friend like me he... hasn't written or anything and I haven't heard from him or know what's going on in his life and... I think that hurts... to say you really like someone but put no effort in seeing them or contacting them... this most recent silence from him hurts me a lot... he never tells me how I can get ahold of him or what he's doing... so it makes times when he says things like "I'm so lucky to have a friend like you" seem like he's just flat out lying... like he doesn't care at all about any effort I put into our relationship (As friends)... Ugh, boys are stupid... *Sigh* but lets get back to my boy... Lets see... what can we say about him... well he's amazing. Practically perfect in every way. He's a bit indecisive... a few little things I can foresee in the future we may need to work out before we consider anything super serious, but nothing major. He loves me and that's all that matters. I love him back. I think if I could, honestly, I would marry him this very instance and probably never regret it in my life. I wish it were that easy though.
School
Ugh school... I don't even know where to beging... Animation... 2D animation... 5 classes a week... painful, tiring, but better than high school I think. I love what I do. The school itself is interesting and easy enough to navigate. They have pizza vending machines. Any place that has that is okay with me.
Life
Ah home life. Well I'm living in an appartment, small and overpriced, with 3 other girls... with one bathroom. It's painfull let me tell you. I've learned to be more independant though. I can cook and shop for myself and really I love living on my own. Other than the fire alarms pulled at 2AM in the morning like last night... stare .... I haven't gone grocery shopping in a week and I am out of food... I eat a lot of cheese... neutral is that weird? it's easy to make at least. xd I'm living in Portland now. It's an AWESOME city. I absolutely love living here, it's great. I walk everywhere, it's green, and the air is so clean, like home, which is cool for a big city like this. The shopping is nice, it's got a cinnabon. SPEAKING OF!!! the month I leave my hometown gets a Cinnabon! I got so pissed. No fair at all. I'm making lots of new friends here but still, I don't like hanging out with them as much as my boyfriend and just wish I could have both. I need a job... he's so far away I need to be able to afford visiting him.
Anyways that's the major recent things that have happened to me, even though me and Valcos have been together for, actually almost half a year now. It's amazing to think, but wonderful too. heart I really love him... I really do... But yeah. Good to talk to you again Journal.
Love, Kiatara
