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Well a new year gone by. I feel as though I have accomplished nothing, or done nothing significant with my life this whole year, besides working minimum wage in a piece of crap factory. Though I am happy that I'm starting to change my life around by getting better grades in college, and by working out to stay healthy...I still feel like my life is going no where. Sure I got a bunch of games and some good comics to read, but still I feel so empty inside. Oh how I long for the warmth of a woman's embrace...it's been over three years I've had this simple sensation, considering what my ex did to me. Damn that nympho...even now she still haunts my dreams and I do my best to get her out of my head, but she just won't leave me be. I spent years and months trying to win her back, or hoping that her "betrothed" would ******** up along the way and should return to my arms...but no...that was not the case.

Love...it can drive people insane...people even kill for it. It's such a strange thing...you may love one person but that person loves someone else, and the someone else loves someone completely unknown to you. It's a confusing thing....and it's sad that some of us out there may not find true love, no matter what we do. No matter how enthusiastic we are, how much money we have, no matter how popular or unpopular we are, how much money we spend...it's hopeless for some of us. Let's face it people, the world is a very dark and brutal place, and the people who don't "flow with the river" are shunned out from society, because we as humans are afraid of what's different from us.

Fear is what causes the majority of the problems we have in this world. For from fear comes anger, then pain, and then suffering. You need not look no further than history books to see this.

I still hope you all have a happy new year and be sure to drive home safely