OK if you have read all the other Lance entrys then i hope you'll have some happy ness for me in this one... but lose that happy feeling when i get to the end of this entry.
Well last night as you all know i called Lance , Well he didn't pick up so i took a shower and went down stairs and watched the moved " 6 Sence" And i wait and waited thinking maybe he would call me back and he did! So i was all happy and giddy and stuff. We talked for a while and he told me he had 2 siters he lives with his mom his fav color is blue .... and some other things. BUt when i first talked to him he souned sad (He seems to be like that alot ) And i asked him if i made him sad, and he said no. THen i asked him if i made him happy but he said that not alot of people do, and then i asked him why? and he said That he had a hard time trusting people, not that he didn't trust me he said... but still that got me thinking... Maybe cause hes sad is because of his dad thing. I think his mom and dad broke up and thats why he gose to the lake all the time... and maybe something happen and he feels that he can't trust people now. Oh and he said that people always seem to want things from him... and i could have cryed there but i held back the tears. I told him i didn't want anything from him just for him to talk to me. and he laughed a little. ( Gosh he has the most cutes laugh ) But he had to go and i went and watched the end of my movie.
But today, i talk to him... and i saw him like i always do. and he seemed like he always seemed. And every thing was fine. But then me and my friend wanted him to go see a movie with us tonight and so we waited for his class to get out, and his mom could see us from her truck and his sisters were in there.. and i guess My friend wanted to give him a hug and he was like.. i have to go my mom is right here... but from the truck we could hear. " Lances got a griil friend. " And thats when it hit me.... He didn't want his mom to see there we were there.. he has sisters that woudl tease him... and HES JUST 15!!! I don't think i can do this... i want to ask him out but even if he did like me i think he would say no causes hes not ready for a relastion ship. So now i don't know what to do i was so going to ask him out but now i can't.... .Gosh why dose this have to be so hard, and you all arnt helping cause your not saying what you think.
But then things get even more worse... You know that Sam girl i was talking about how she made me mad cause she said something about me at the game, now shes going around in her classes talking about how fat i am and stuff. And then My friend that was with me toeday told me that Sam sat down on the table beside lance and all the boys were making fun of me and he didn't say anything... Gosh yeah that was enough to make me up set right there. So i know how sam is and i know that she could make up crap like that but i don't understand... adn you know you still have to wonder if she really did hear all that.... gosh.. .what is a girl to do in this world.
Well any way i should let you go i just had to tell every one how my phone call went and what happen today. I wont have much to say over the weekend because hes going down to the lake... so just hand tight and i'll get back to you when i get back to you.
Poison Coco Kiss · Fri Oct 21, 2005 @ 03:00am · 1 Comments |