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I Resolve, Henceforth...
My New Year's Resolutions, to date.

1.) Complete a stellar portfolio with at least ten acrylic paintings by the end of the school year, so I can get my start as an artist.

2.) Start college, hopefully at a Christian college, where the persecution shall hopefully cease.

3.) Grow closer to God by praying multiple times daily, and reading the Bible at least once per day. Perhaps pick up a Bible study to help me along, and in getting started.

4.) Lose weight, so I can fit into my favorite pair of jeans again without feeling overly self-conscious.

5.) Finally deal with my fears of intimate (by this, I mean platonic intimate, such as just friends) relationships, of getting too close to people, and of bearing parts of my soul to people I do not necessarily know or trust completely.

6.) Finally deal with my fears of intimate relationships with the opposite gender, including getting over the feeling of failure that arises when I think about my previous two relationships, which ended in complete, utter, and painful failures. Be able to think about them without saying "It was all my fault", and crying when I start to get too nostalgic. Get over them, rather than continuously wishing it had worked out between us. Perhaps enter a new relationship with a person actually compatible with me (this resolution may extend into the proceeding four or so years). - IN PROGRESS

7.) Begin writing something. A novel, a short story, a children's book, anything except fan fiction. Perhaps begin to plan that manga I've always wanted to draw. - IN PROGRESS

8.) Get rid of all the guilt, receive forgiveness, make as much right as possible (or give it to God to fix, if that proves impossible) and finally come to terms with my faults, so that I can move forward with a clear conscience and a lighter load on my heart.

9.) Laugh joyfully in public and mean it. - COMPLETE!

10.) Stop hating her for dating him.

11.) Stop hating him for dating her.

12.) Stop thinking so much, and start putting those thoughts into action.

13.) Give mom more massages for her back pains.

14.) Forgive dad. He loves you, really. Develop a better relationship with him.

15.) Forgive them. They didn't understand, which is why they didn't know to stick up for you and defend you when you were kicked to the ground and writhing.

16.) Forgive ALL of them. They didn't understand how far words can carry, and it only hurts you to bear those teasing jests like a festering wound. They probably don't even remember it. Neither should you.

17.) Understand the fact that I'm not perfect, and I never will be...and that it's just fine that way, and I shouldn't expect to be perfect. Not for myself. Not for anyone. Still be willing to do my best, despite this knowledge.

More may be added.






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onetaileddemonfox
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commentCommented on: Tue Dec 30, 2008 @ 03:04am
Best of luck ^__^. It's a good list.


commentCommented on: Wed Dec 31, 2008 @ 05:50pm
you are far too religious, but thats fine, whatever makes you happy ^^
i am very proud of you, this is a very good list and i wish you the best of luck
also, i am so sorry, i should be more supportive, i should have been more supportive, you have gone through a lot, we should really talk more.



Lord Kronus
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