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Something most of all of you will not know about me is I'm one of those drivers that pushes the speed limit and if there's no 'posted' speed limit then I punch it. I hate driving behind slow people!!! gonk I can deal with it if they are at least going the speed limit, but when I'm following one of those dorks that go like five miles slower I get a little shouty. I'm not a reckless driver, I've never rolled a rig or even hit anyone els. I did hit a deer once but that was totally the deers fault. I was even going the speed limit that time. Anyway what brought this on was I had to follow one of those dorks on my way into the library. Speaking of myself, it's amazing what one person can tell you about yourself. I've had my share (possibly more) of girlfriends but I've never been a jealous guy. They could come and go as they pleased, I'd just call the next one on the list. Until the only one to reject me. We had been friends since we were in just chillens and we now live a good distance away. She insists that she has no interest in me, but through my various gfs I've learned to pick up on those "subtle" hints that a woman drops when she likes you. Even giving myself a 40% margin of error (given my emotions clouding my judgment) I'm about 70% sure that she does. Back to me being jealous. She has been sending letters to my younger brothers and this makes me jealous. It's my little brother for goodness sake!! That and I really have no claim to her so I have no reason to get jealous. I'm not jealous of her talking to him I just really, really want to know what she's saying. It's just not my little brother either, but I really don't feel like going into detail on this. I also didn't think a person could be beautiful by my standards, but she is. Not just beautiful either, When she laughs she's cute, when she wears those long skirts she's pretty, in a good pair of blue jeans she is damn sexy, and when she's genuinely smiling with the sun on her hair...... well just thinking about that leaves me breathless. There are two or three scenes that are permanently etched into my memory because of that. I've seen pretty eyes but man hers just draw me in. If you like some one you want to change them for you, if you love someone you want to change yourself for them. Wow, I really went on for a bit. LOL I'm glad none of you know me. sweatdrop I really put on a tough guy persona but when I think of her it really doesn't matter anymore and I just ruin all of that. Well that's enough nearly mindless rambling for one evening. Later all.
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