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Read the most recent post for an explanation of my leaving.
I'm not even angry. I'm being so sincere right now.
My last journal entry was in anger.
I don't want to leave in anger, I want to leave in peace.

Gaia has been a lot of things for me, and I honestly can't list them all.
Teacher, friend, escape, playground... The list goes on.

But a lot of things that have been associated with me are bad.
And at this point, I feel like it's easier to start new than to try to redeem myself.
So it's time for me to leave, as Zaeyde.
Zaeyde has been on Gaia for 5 years. She grew, got older, got smarter, had fun, and had her prime.
When she was in her prime, she was awesome. She was amazing.
But then she changed. She left and came back, and when she came back everything had changed.
So she started getting older and more bitter.
And eventually, the Zaeyde that once was wasn't there anymore. Sure, that Zaeyde might have been there under all the callous and ugliness, but no one could see through that.
Even I couldn't see through it.

And I didn't like what Zaeyde had become.

So I made a mule.
And as I started to develop that mule and the character that went with it, I realized that she was everything Zaeyde was before she left.
This new mule is everything I am, without the negativity.
And it's funny. Once I had this new, positive mule, it was easier to make Zaeyde bitter.
And the longer it went on, the more I realized what needed to be done.
This isn't martyrdom. This isn't me giving up. This isn't me being melodramatic or whatever some people may say it is.
This is me knowing when to let go and move on.
So Zaeyde is moving on.

I've donated all my items to a user who I think is doing a really cool thing. Someone referred me to him, and I think he's got a lot of promise.
I want a fresh start on my new account, so I think the best way to do that is to get rid of all my items.
I'm starting fresh.

So Zaeyde is leaving, but I'm not.
I'm still here, just under a different name.
This name's all worn out.

The other name is fresh.
I'd ask you to please not worry about who it is, but if you absolutely cannot live without knowing who I've been "reincarnated" into, then PM me and I will tell you.

But honestly, don't worry about it.

Zaeyde's gone, but I'm still here, and that's what matters.

So goodbye.

See you in the next life. n.n

User Comments: [10] [add]
Blind Clarity
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commentCommented on: Sat Nov 29, 2008 @ 03:23am
Good luck. I hope we meet again in this new life and that you are still a GCDer.

commentCommented on: Sat Nov 29, 2008 @ 04:00am
See you later? ducky. :3 <3

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Sevi Rais
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commentCommented on: Sun Nov 30, 2008 @ 05:21am
Makes sense. I'm glad you didn't give up so easily as your last journal suggested. 3nodding

Lol, your new account. Yes. whee Still getting those flowers done then?

I'm glad you're still here regardless. Some people give up because they have an old name with an old face with too much of a past. With another account it's easy to become someone else and start something else. I wish you all the best. 3nodding

commentCommented on: Sun Nov 30, 2008 @ 09:03am

Chaos Rainbow
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Kazuma Ishimaru
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commentCommented on: Sun Nov 30, 2008 @ 05:21pm
Oh wow!

This seems better to go off in than the last post....maybe I should've waited to post my thoughts here. sweatdrop

I'm glad you like the new you! Good luck with your new life and such! blaugh

Here's to a better future....
and me trying to guess the reincarnation. (you are still a GCD'r right?) ninja

commentCommented on: Sun Nov 30, 2008 @ 07:39pm
Don't worry, things will clear up in the future :3
Just remember that looking back is a bad habbit :3

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Fuhrer des Drachen
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commentCommented on: Tue Dec 02, 2008 @ 03:27am

Good luck in your Gaian Reincarnation.

If we meet again, don't hesitate to say hi. I'll try to find you, so asking for the mule's name would ruin all of the fun. Again, good luck and I hope that you can have fun on this site again.

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commentCommented on: Thu Feb 12, 2009 @ 03:05am
Hi Zaeyde,

I wish I was on Gaia more a couple months back to read this entry cry ! Good luck in your new life, and please don't be a stranger wink ! Feel free to PM me anytime!

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commentCommented on: Sat Apr 25, 2009 @ 06:13am
Good bye Zaeyde. I'll never forget the Gaia quilt that you made years ago for Gaia's anniversary.

Hope to bump into your new account somewhere in this vast world.

commentCommented on: Sun Aug 23, 2009 @ 01:18am

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