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I use words very specifically. I do this so that people won't misunderstand me. But I'm beginning to feel that this is having a revers affect. For example; A while back a friend of mine asked me to refer to her as a girl. I would usually call her a kid, woman, or lady, and offered to call her a femi but she didn't like that. However I would and will refuse to call her a girl simply because of the meaning it has to me. I am now deeply religious, but haven't always been. and in my past I dated girls, to me girl holds the same connotation as slut, which in my mind is drastically different than a whore. But is this something I can just change? There are certain things that are easy to change but this doesn't seem to be harmful so does it even need alteration? Honestly though, dictionaries are useless. Sure words hold a general meaning but the specifics are up to each individual person. Life can be confusing. By the way, this same friend is that femi that I said I was in love with. She shut off contact with me and I said that I would leave communication between us up to her, but should I go back on my word? Let me clarify, she recently moved a good distance away and sitting here thinking about her hurts.I miss her so much I literally hurt. Damn it what should I do!?!?!?! Oh and after I thought about it some more I realized that she made a lier out of me more than just twice, it would be closer to five, six if I contact her first. That pisses me off! scream
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