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	World of Pink Beware, o brave new world... This is Kyuu's mind speaking. Regard this as a breeding ground for the slightly twisted, slightly random, slightly na�ve and brain-cloggingly pink-tinted thoughts that like to scurry about in my head. Do enjoy.

	A Bittersalty Symphony
	A Bittersalty Symphony


It's dark outside, it's dark inside. I'm not a happy panda today; not at all. It's weird... This morning when I got up, I felt like I was beholding the world through the eyes of somebody else. Somebody who lacked the optimistic filters I usually enjoy so much. Frankly, it was a bit creepy. Because not only was it a sad and gloomy outlook. I actually felt like I was seeing things more clearly than usual. Like some kind of scales had fallen off my eyes and allowed me to witness reality in its full, bitter nakedness. I was going through the day feeling like everything I encountered, everything people said to me... Like I was seeing through it all. I was mentally X-raying and analyzing the whole world down to its tiniest specks of puzzlement, and what remained was sheer, bitter falsensess and emptiness. The spiny, rotted skeleton upon which the pretty, plastic facades of everything was plastered. I didn't laugh at things I'd usually find funny. I cringed with disgust at things I'd usually shrug off. And through it all, I felt like everyone around me was staggering around in blind ignorance; not being able to see the truth as I did. And I'm starting to understand how pessimism breeds so well. For it is a darn comfortable seat to linger in when everything else makes you want to spit. ... Oh, I also had a curious lot of excess energy inside me. Not a happy, bouncy kind; but an angry, frustrated kind. Though, the real wonder is how much of it there was. Sort of like when I ran 10 miles spontaneously. And Jad and Alex were at Lava today. They were hugging each other like only a loving couple does. With fingers smoothing across each other's faces and hair, their eyes singing of soft delight at one another. Love is a beautiful thing. ... It hurt me deep inside to watch, though. And then I understood what my problem was. The heavy shadow hanging over my shoulders. The avatar of lonelyness. I need you here with me. God damnit. Kyuu · Sat Sep 03, 2005 @ 12:56am · 3 Comments


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	Aww, poor Kyuu. Loneliness is the most terrible thing ever. I hope you can get over it. <3 Offline Candy_Chimes_Gurl · Community Member · Tue Sep 06, 2005 @ 11:41pm


	dangles over your shoulders D'aaaw.. mister grumpy-face. @ 3@ Offline Liten Rosa Pille · Community Member · Tue Sep 13, 2005 @ 03:52pm


	;~; Offline .Purple Emo. · Community Member · Fri Sep 23, 2005 @ 03:11am

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