Hallo Journal, How are you :3?
Have you ever had so much on your dinner plate that the plate broke? Thats how I feel about now.
I'm trying to raise 2 kids, save money, move, find a ******** job which don't seem to exist out here unless I want to spread my goodies for sweaty 40 year old men.. (Which I certainly DON'T!) A bf that has suddenly gone emotionally mute on me and an Ex that keeps telling my kids s**t that directly attacks me.
My son is getting picked on at school to the point he comes home in tears a lot but because (most) of the kids are a coons it's ok, that coon must have "home issues" Home issues? Beat his ******** a**. That would end the runts "Issues"
Don't get me wrong, not all aboriginals are coons.. some of them are lovely, but unless you live where I do and see what I see you wont understand so I'm going to stop justifying the use of "coon" now.
Anyway all of this is on me at the moment and I won't lie. I'm struggling to cope with a lot of it. I've started to loose weight which is good, I need to... but not because I'm not eating, that isn't the way to do it and I don't want to end up with Anorexia or back in hospital again.
Shingles? Do you know what shingles are? well they are related to Chicken Pox and Herpes.. It looks like a rash from your spine to your waist, straight across. Just small mosquito bites.. that makes it feel as though all the bones in that rib cage on that side have been smashed in with a Pneumatic Hammer.
My blood pressure is higher than it should be, my hair (which I loose a lot of anyway, but it grows back so fast it doesn't matter) is looking stressed because that's how stressed I am.
I'm trying to do the right thing for my family (that includes Alex) but ******** is it hard to do it on my own.
I'm scared about moving down south because it means I'll have to live with my parents again stare I'm 25, I don't want to live with my ******** parents. I know what they are like, if they think I'm on the internet too long they'll shut it off.
I'M 25 ******** YEARS OLD!!! I know when I've had enough of the computer but for some reason, I don't care blaugh I mean whey the hell do I feel like rebelling against them? UGH!! ;;>.>
Treat me like an adult kthnx.
AND!!! I have to leave my cat behind... emo I, for as long as I can remember... have hated cats.. with a passion, until we got Matilda. I lost my baby Kale last year to drowning and Matilda filled that massive hole that he left behind and now I have to leave her too. MEANWHILE! my mum goes out and buys a ******** Chihuahua.
My snake could eat my mums dog Tai, he's so small he isn't even.. I don't know how.. ITS NOT A ******** DOG!! It's a walking slipper!!!
*Sighs* Oh journal, why can't I be like you. Full of problems but just not giving a s**t?
One day my life will be calm, and I'll be bored.. and I'll look back and be proud of myself for getting through it. That's what I usually do. This one though is just going to take a whooooooooooooooooole lot longer gonk
heart Nara
Sedated Dreams · Mon May 26, 2008 @ 04:26pm · 0 Comments |