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Like I said before, Please, No one be offended by what I say in this entry.




I haven't really made an entry in a while, so I though I'd create one today.


Life so far has been pretty great.



School:
My grades are improving and I'm doing my work more often. I think now that I'm single again, I have more space and time to myself. I'm starting to talk to my friends more and I find myself actually enjoying going out with them from time to time. Last time I went to a friends house was when I was about 12. I used to live next to my only and true best friend. Now, that I moved away, it's different. And I suppose I just don't like finding friends anymore, well, not true ones at the least. Things are starting to change now, the older I get. The more I adapt to my new surroundings. I guess you could say I'm more on the shy side. I don't act normally around people I don't know.One of my best friends from school is Erica. The other, Keeshia. They are both really awesome. Erica is really funny and she makes me smile. She knows how to break the silence, lol. She can also take me seriously at times too. She pretty much understands me. Keeshia, on the other hand is pretty awesome too. She invited me to her house and we went to the movies. She actually has serious conversations with me. I try and help her with her problems.

Lol, I asked my teacher today if I could have one of his painted box turtles. I didn't think he would have taken me seriously, but he did. He actually said yes, if I had the materials to take care of one. I was really surprised. I think I just might be getting a turtle soon. I've never had a turtle before and I think it would be a wonderful experience.

Relationships:
Single. Woot woot? o_O'
I would like to be in a relationship with a guy, but it seems i'm still in love with my last boyfriend. Lol, We were together for "about" 5 months. He was the best guy i've gone out with, but we knew from the start it wasn't going to last. Yeah, I got into a long distance relationship. Kinda sucks when you love someone who is so far away. My mom said I'll grow out of long distance relationships. I still talk to him today though. He's a big part of my life. I try and help him from time to time with his problems, but I don't seem to do a very good job of helping. I wish I could do better and make him happy. I want to hear him happy. If I do, then I'm happy also. He is currently in a relationship and I hear how he's doing. He told me that I'm one person that he tells most everything to. Just to hear him say that makes me speechless. It makes me feel so important in his life. Thanks Joe.

There are a few cute guys at my school, but none for a real relationship. Most are just typical "Wanna go out for 2 minuets and then break up?" relationships. If I had a friend that was a guy, I would try and go for him, but, I don't really have a guy friend, so it's no use. I talk to guys and all, but to most guys, I'm a rude b***h, lol. It's from bad experiences in the past. But, if you can get through that side of me, you can pretty much talk to me.

Parents:
My mom is pregnant again with my step fathers second child. She's around 2 months. She has also been quite grouchy lately, but I can't blame her. Lol, I would be too. My dad, on the other hand, has been working two jobs and is trying to find a decent apartment. He's also fight with his girlfriend about stupid stuff. Her mother is in the hospital and she is stressed and blames that on other people. My dad might be moving again soon...

Myself:
I could take better care for myself. I could be playing a sport, rather than writing this. I could be at a job, working for money towards my future. I could be more responsible. I could have more self-esteem. I could be saying "I Love You" more to the people I care about. I could be more social. I could be out with my friends more. I could be speaking to my dad more. I could do/say a lot more things.
I plan to change my life to accomplish all these goals and better my future.




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