Today is Laird's birthday and I'm not too happy.
There are thing I'd rather not remember, in this case it's his birthday because it brings back to many painful memories.
My heart's broken into 2 along with my mind and personality...
I don't feel like one person anymore, I feel like 2 people, this person who just wants to yell at someone, and then this depressed version of me.
As for my mind, I'm just confused. I don't know what's right or wrong and I don't know what to believe anymore.... all the lies... they've broken my trust.
Sometimes I feel like giving up and just ending everything, but I made a promise to Jake and my friends that I wouldn't... though it does seem the easiest way out.
In reading we were reading this book and it's kinda a dejavu moment because everything that happened in the book relates to me and my life somewhat. I'm surprised the girl didn't kill herself because she went through a lot more than I did, she got raped and got pregnant etc.
Luckily for me, I'm not pregnant... I'm still a virgin. razz
Shiny told me that she just broke up with her boyfriend and she said we could be get through this break up together. I really wish she was on more though, because I need someone mature that I can talk to. She makes me calm and feel cared for.
Life is so confusing, but I won't end it...
There are thing I'd rather not remember, in this case it's his birthday because it brings back to many painful memories.
My heart's broken into 2 along with my mind and personality...
I don't feel like one person anymore, I feel like 2 people, this person who just wants to yell at someone, and then this depressed version of me.
As for my mind, I'm just confused. I don't know what's right or wrong and I don't know what to believe anymore.... all the lies... they've broken my trust.
Sometimes I feel like giving up and just ending everything, but I made a promise to Jake and my friends that I wouldn't... though it does seem the easiest way out.
In reading we were reading this book and it's kinda a dejavu moment because everything that happened in the book relates to me and my life somewhat. I'm surprised the girl didn't kill herself because she went through a lot more than I did, she got raped and got pregnant etc.
Luckily for me, I'm not pregnant... I'm still a virgin. razz
Shiny told me that she just broke up with her boyfriend and she said we could be get through this break up together. I really wish she was on more though, because I need someone mature that I can talk to. She makes me calm and feel cared for.
Life is so confusing, but I won't end it...