i love all my friends dearly, and my family. past friends that i have lost, well things change and people move on; i am living proof of that.
i realize that you can't please everyone and that not all people will listen to you even if you have something important and intellectual to say. people have their own issues and just get so wrapped up in them that they go on automatic and don't really see the outside world. i have done this too and i am just cracking through that for myself. peices of me i am trying to collect all over again, some i won't ever get back no matter how hard i try. i am just left with memories of them and that is what i have to settle with.
life goes on with or without you. it will just drag you along if you are not paying attention and all those things that you could have had before are gone now.
i really don't know what i am saying anymore, just babbling and trying to make sense of what i have learned and am learning now. in a few short months i have been through alot. ups and downs and arounds. i am not making excuses for my past mistakes, just realizing things that i did before. i should have seen them but i was so god damn wrapped up in my own problems that i miss it all. missed all the things that i could have had.
but you know what? i wouldn't give up it up for the all the money and valuables that could be had. what i have now, is mine, i love it all. everything that i have been through i wouldn't change it. why? because it makes me who i am now. it defines me, and i wouldn't change anything about it.
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· Sat Aug 06, 2005 @ 07:02am · 0 Comments