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I really don't know what I'm writting now... I guess I should start with the obvious... I love (person who sall remain nameless). I love (Same person diffrent name). I love (same person yet another name). I can't describe it. He is the first guy to ever get an I Love you out of me that was really ment to be said. I just cann't get over Him. I don't know if anyone is reading this, if anyone every will, but it's so hard to express on paper but its the only way to remember.. and not to forget. I don't know if he still loves me. Hell he probly dosn't even remember me. I wish I could send a sign to him about how much I still long for him. I believe that the time we spent together was real, not fake, not made up, real. But then again it could all be a lie. All of it or some of it, or...
He told me he was 15. His friends said he was 12, and his youtube account said he was 21. Its all so confusing! Mabey because I'm trying to figure it out at 11:00 at night. It's probly just confusing overall. I don't know, I just wish I could figure it out. I'm so confused.