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ever feel that you just dont belong anymore???
that the group of friends that you love and would die for...just dont seem to be the same anymore(and you know that ur the reason its not the same)????
you've chnaged to much and the only way to go is forward...away from everyone you know
you will always love and want to keep in touch with those love ones who have helped make you who you are...but its time to move on
its just not the same..... you get depressed when you hear they went out without you annd you then go out with them and you get depressed casue you realize you dont fit in with them anymore
you just smile and laugh and try really hard to be the person they remember
when inside you are crawling deeper and deeper into a dark whole
and the worst part is..there is no way out but waiting
you are stuck there until u have the freedom to move
its sad.... (and you love your friends you do) but there is no changing what has happened (god you want it to just go back to the old times!)
its no ones fault (though inside yu scream that its yours)
even the friends that you swear you would never want to leave are making you more and more depressed everday
you wonder.."why do i even make friends if in the end the just make me depressed?"
"why do i even care?"
but you cant help it your human and you need human interatction that campionship with another person
your just TIRED......
nothing else can explain it
your TIRED and weak and cant take it
you want to go into a long long sleep away from it all
shut everyone out
not care anymore
but you cant...... you love those people to much
you love life to much
so you try
but everyday it gets harder to put on that fake smile.... to make those same jokes
it gets..TIRING