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Diary of the Demented
This is just, my diary....I guess. I'm very skeptic about putting it on here, but I figured that maybe a self taught psychologist might read it and help me. My emotions are severely up and down, but I'm putting myself out there.
Creative Paths...
March 28th, 2008 3:25PM

I'm really digging The Raveonettes right now. I really like their song Dead Sound. Dragonette is awesome too, I'm loving I Get Around.

I'm so ******** tired. I went home sick from work last night, at like 12AM. I feel like I'm getting Tonsillitis again...which is retarded, because I just got over that. So, I went to bed at 4AM, woke up at 7:30AM, and watched T.V. until I could order pizza. I'm not even going to try and sleep now. I'll never get up in time for work if I do that.

I went on MSN today, and a message from Eden and Jordan popped up from the 25th. It said that they were o.k and they'd call me when they got some "cash flow"-ing. I'm glad they let me know that.

I missed That's Amore last night! How retarded is that?! I really wanted to know who was kicked off, and I need to hear that Kathleen chick scream "Everybody's fake!!!" in her downified, squeak voice.

I hope I get to go to Camrose tomorrow. I kind of want to see my Grandma. I miss her. I can't stand her when she comes down here though, when she's around my aunt. It's just like an "Abuse Krystal's Feelings" free-for-all with the both of them. I'm stupid, they treat me like I'm 7, all my friends use me, I could never be anything I want to be, blah blah blah....

I don't know, maybe they're right.

SO, I think I want to try and write. I would love to be a fiction author. I guess that would be my dream, besides being a freaking rockstar or meeting Ville Valo.

I had an idea about a story. I was thinking about how devastated I would be if I was never able to sing or speak again. Like, for example: I got into a car accident and a shard of glass impaled me right through my voice box and they had to remove it. I would be suicidal! I wouldn't be able to live day to day if I couldn't sing. I think that's what I want my story to be about. Of course, I'll have to develop it way better than that, and do a lot of medical research to see if that's even possible. My main character will struggle with major depression, caused by the loss of her voice, her only vice. She'll try and take her life several ways, learn about new ways to communicate, fight depression and addictions, find an unlikely love, and...yeah, I don't know what else, eventually try and come back to society after years in a mental institution. I wants lots of betrayal and drama. Maybe an ex-best friend ran her over in a drunken rage, and she crashed through the windshield. Oooo...so many ideas coming to mind!! I'm excited now! Something in my life to look forward to! I'm going to be completely dedicated and committed to this story.

And I kind of want to call the horrible ex-best friend Kean......

Kodi Jade
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