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I haven't written a journal entry in a while, so I figured, why not? might as well.
Since my last entry I've been trying to handle these unfounded fears of jealousy, worry, anxiety, and depression towards my friends. I have this really weird feeling that I'm going to lose them or drive them away somehow, at least, I -had- this feeling over the past few months.
I've hung out a bunch with my friends over the past few months, we've gone out to see some movies~ Juno, Jumper, and 10,000 BC. It's all fun and stuff and I've hung out with them. I sort of found myself getting used to hanging out with them a bunch though. As a result I kind of felt down when I wasn't able to hang out with them.
Furthermore, my semester has changed, all of my previous classes that I mentioned in my last entry are over with. I finished Psychology class with 90%, an A, although I could've gotten like 95% or higher if I really tried, and I finished with an 89% in English, which I'm very pleased with, although I definitely could've gotten at least a 91% in that class, had I tried uber hard.
Right now my classes are Writing 12, a creative writing course where you write poetry and short stories, however it's not as analytical as english, it's just for fun, so it's nice and kind of theraputic.
I'm also taking French 12, one of my favourite courses ever. It's the only class I've ever been able to exceed my own expectations in. I'm doing really very well in it actually, I believe I have a 94%. I'm trying to push and push and make my mark as high as possible though. This is a LOT due to the fact that one of my good friends is in that class too and he's always gotten higher grades than me. As a result I want to be able to have at least ONE class that's my own, where I can think, "wow, I beat him in that class" a little competative =P. [The guy's the same guy who I was all low-self-esteemy about in my last post btw].
I have a spare block that I spend with a bunch of friends, the friend I'm 'competing' with included. I feel kind of bad since I know he doesen't think poorly of me oo; I'm just a competative loser. In any case I usually spend that period just thinking, reading, or talking to friends, it's nice.
I have History 12 as my last class. I love that class muchly. It's so informative, but in all the good ways, I feel like what I'm learning is so important, and it gives me a whole new view on humanity. I want to do well in that class, I'm doing okay right now, I think I have around 80%. I'd prefer a 90% at least though.
I'm also taking Principles of Math 12 by correspondence. I know that in my last entry I said that I would be taking comparative civs, but that course was just bull .-.; I logged onto the site and the whole content was just so confusing and messed up, so I made a last minute choice to drop it and switch over to math and just power through it. At the moment I'm halfway done the course, and hope to finish it by at least the beginning of June.
Right now it's spring break. It started last saturday. Last saturday was when I went and saw 10,000 BC with some of my friends. We all thought 'hey! we'll hang out over spring break' didn't happen. My friends didn't return my messages to hang out, so I kind of felt bummed out for a couple of days o-o I'm kind of over it now, it's a nice feeling :3. I figure that I'll just study and try to get my math mark up, which is what I've been doing for pretty much all of spring break, which is nice since I feel productive. I hope I get at least 65% in math. THATS how difficult it is for me D:
Right now I'm putting off doing my French dictionary project, although I really should be doing it x_x; I'm talking to some friends on msn and pretending I'm working so that my family will leave me alone :3.
My grandma has upped the anty on her whole "YOU ARE MY PRECIOUS GRANDCHILD. I MUST WADE ON YOU 24/7" it's.. frusterating. I've been trying to handle it carefully by not getting frusterated though, although it is hard.
I applied to University too late because I couldn't decide what to go into. I finally decided that I'll be majoring in French, mabye minoring in Business, and I'm probably going to go on to become a French Teacher. I don't care if my dad doesen't like it, I'm going into the freaking job that I want to go into -_-.
I also need to get a move on, on this novel my friend wants me to read xD I thought i'd have it done over spring break, I haven't even gotten close. 900 pages to go ftw ;D.
gogogo reeed · Mon Mar 24, 2008 @ 11:19pm · 1 Comments |
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