I'm in a mood where I'm enjoying my depression. I tend to have a general dislike/ hatered for the world and this makes me feel hopeless or depressed every now and then. And no before you run tot eh phone I do not have a razor blade in my hand! (thats an emo not a goth) So yes on ward with my mood!
As I stated above I'm enjoying my depression. Honestly I like feeling numb to teh world because after a busy week filled with dealing with poeple it's nice to just let go and put on some rather dark and depressing music (I've found that songs like Dairy of Jane and Scars work best, Scars (by papa roach) holds specail meaning to me but thats an entery for later...)
So yes even now while I hold my head in my hands (well not literally right now...) I can't help but enjoy it... This sweet hopelessness is my drug, becasue once I've hit this piont I know that I'm safe. Nothing else can bring me down once I'm on teh ground. Here I'm invicable. I think that might be why I enjoy this so much.
I'm sorry if I'm confusing soem of you this might be just something that's just me but if your liek this to please comment on it! Thank you listenign to my rather odd way of enjoyinbg myself.
Cyrus von Helson Community Member 
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