And so, for me, there comes a point in which I just can't buy into it anymore. I don't believe in it. I begin to loathe that modern entertainment portrays Lindsay Lohan, Paris Hilton, and especially Tom Cruise, in such a way that makes their lives sound so much better than mine.
I used to love live music. I'd go see bands all the time, and I picked up a guitar 4 years ago, with the express purpose of joining a band. Something happened in the last year. My desire is gone. I go to shows, and I'm bored. I watch these bands on stage, and I find myself thinking how stupid they are.
Musicians are the biggest marks....
So I put two and two together recently. People in bands, and in the music scene are no different than any other entertainment medium. I read a couple of music mags, and I'm always struck by how some band can be billed as the next big thing, when I can go see them live, and there's maybe 20 people there, tops.
I think this is what has killed music for me. Or at least, rock bands in general. Here you have a group of people, who by and large, believe their own bullshit. They really buy into their own act. Punk has become the new Hair Metal, and Hip-hop and rap has gone from a revolutionary, underground musical movement to being a complete joke.
And this is where I begin to wonder if it's just me.
It's no secret....well, ok it's a secret to most everyone I know, save a handful of people, that I've had some serious battles with depression through out my life. Part of being depressed, is you begin to see only the flaws. You see only what you don't have, rather than what you do. A few months ago, I passed by a building that I've always admired the look of. When I passed by it this last time, it struck me that all I could really see were the cracks in it's walls. And I wonder if that's just how I am now. I just see all the cracks.
Am I just not enjoying all my usual forms of entertainment because I'm depressed? Can I just not enjoy live music, pro wrestling, movies, television, or anything else because I find I completely lack the ability to suspend my disbelief? Why is it now, when I see a band, I think about how stupid they are for buying into their own act? Why do I just see celebrities as pompous, overpaid brats who don't deserve my attention? If pro wrestling is my religon, how come I'm not going to church anymore?
Is it me? Or are we in a really horrible time period for entertainment?
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