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Back in around near the beggining of may(actually it was around littel in towrads arpil) fo this year i met a girl in a thread I created called the panty fairy. we both becmae very good freinds and we kinda started to like each eath other more and more and one day i kinda jsut gave her my number mostly becuase i really didnt have anyone to talk to on it and well she was fun to talk to and joke around with and so much more.Then one day isent her apm asking her to give me a call and well thats when iasked her out after strugglinh to say it too. Everything was going so well we got along great and never got into anyfights but then one things jsut collapased there was no warbibg of it and it was jsut so sudden. I don't hate her and i never becuase icare for her and even now I still care for her.

things have truly chnaged I still worry about her and how she is doing as well as her lil sis. even though when i post on gai it may seem like I'm alright but the truth is its not how i am its jsut amask ive been putting on. My life jsut feels so empty with her like theres a void she filled that had been missing ..kinda like I had a family of my own to share with the one I love and still love. She may have forgotten who I am by now and my name but i have n't forgotten about her or her sister. both of them together made me life but she made me luagh the most when iwas down even if at times i didn't tell i was and she always could bring a smile to my face.


I will never forget you nor the both of you.

also the very last time italked to her isad something that i know wasnt true and i feel like areal a** for even saying it, no for even thinking it and iam very truly sorry becuase i should know better then that and i know you really do care about your sister.