"Look. If you were in my baggy clothes, wore a scarf just like me, it doesn't matter who you are, your friends wouldn't act the way they do now."
Okay. It's simple. I don't know you guys. And you don't know me. I don't know what to do about these feelings. I can't even relate to you. It's so weird. I wish I could stop myself from feeling this way but I can't. It's so frustrating. I feel nothing. Literally. I am nothing like you guys. Look inside and out. I can't. It's so hard. You guys are all so different. It's so hard to figure out who I am friends with. The past or the present. I think neither. I don't think I'm ever going to know you guys. Everyone forgot about Margaret's party and I thought I did too. But the only reason I can't stop feeling this way was because of what happened then. I have been feeling this way for so long and it's been like a chip on my shoulder. Now I finally realize that it was the party. I didn't care for the party but my mind shattered of what was done to me. Honestly, they've all forgotten but what do they care, they had no idea how I felt. Something like this probably never happened to them. It hurt ALOT. And I'll be brutally honest, ever since that day, I never considered you guys my friends. Say what you want. I'll never look at you guys the same ever again. And it doesn't matter because I'm leaving. Nope, you're not leaving me. I'm leaving. My dad was right all along. What was I thinking? Friends and me? I wasn't born this way and I surely won't die this way. I don't how to say this. Yeah, sure, you'll all be mad but I never cared and I don't think I will. Because in a few day, I'll be gone. To tell you the truth, I was gone a long time ago. I can't talk to you the same way. I can't look at you the same way. I can't even talk about you the same way. To me you're just someone who hurt me. Do you know how a guy hurts you and it's bad to back to him again because he'll only hurt you again? Well, that is what has been happening to me for awhile except now I'm dealing with a friendship. Why do you even bother? Nothing really changed since 6th grade. Nothing but you. =T
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I'm the kid who used to take everything apart just to see how it works and not being able to put it back together again.__x
Stop the world, I wanna get off!__x
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Stop the world, I wanna get off!__x
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