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well.....i have a saying....."when lifes a bicth to you......just be a bicth right back"......well.....life for me....is being realy crapy.....i ware a fack smile......just to plese the croude.....but .....on the inside the paine and lonlyness are crushing me.......i feel so alone and coold.......i look at the scares from the passt......i remember how much it hert till i piket up the razzer blade......when i told my friend......she was realy consernd and told me to stop.....i woldent lessen......the paine from the razzer mad all other paines goaway........now that i queit.....it seems harder and harder to go one...........sometimes i got the stranth to go on.........but other times.........i try not to pike up the razer blade but........with eacth passing day......my hand drows near to it...................i know its a bad habit.....i know one day i might go to far.......but im not stupid......i dont need to be rimindid of that..........i havent piket it back up in such a long time........an i sware i woldent..........but if things keep going like they are now.........i fear for the warst..........life is a test im told.........well......im trying my hardest to pass.........but it just gets hared sometimes...........but i wont go back to the way it use to be................not now...................................not agen