Roleplay (verb)- To assume or act out a particular role.
As days go on and I watch others more and more I feel my love for roleplaying dwindling deep inside me. I recall back in the day when I used to play in a little place called Neopets. I met some wonderful friends (some of which I still talk to.. or happen upon in Gaia and deviant) and I had some wonderful times playing with my pets.. Molding lives with these other players. Until the 'one up' game began.
It's almost inevitable, but someone will always try to one up another. My character has been through more. My character is stronger then yours, no matter what. My character is part demon/son of lucifer/part elf/etc etc. The list is almost endless and no matter what you'll find people who find it necessary to be the best.. to stand in the brightest light. New rpers.. I understand.. but it really brings woe to my soul when a veteran rper does the same.
Needless to say the game stopped my rping on Neopets. I moved to Gaia however, and was happy for along while.. until something else came up....
Simply by definition it should be expected that 'SOME' people are going to rp relationships and love. But it's the continual trend of 'rping just to find a partner for your character' that drives the next spike into my rping joys. Almost anywhere you look you can find examples of it.. and I think some people truely think that 'love' is the only story worth telling...
What it all really boils down to is really quite simple. In my eyes roleplaying is a game of your own creation. To start from nearly scratch and build ones way up through experiences. When I create a character, I don't think ahead "Gee.. I'd really like them to be like ______" or "It'd be really cute if they fell in love with ____" and then go and try to mold my rping to fit that. What possible fun could that be!? How does it fall even loosely into realism.
I strive (both subconciously and conciously) when I play to BE the character.. Not mold the character.. Not create the character... but do exactly as the definition of the word states.. and 'take on and assume the character'. To take the basic knowledge of the character and react as they would, no matter what it does to my plans.. no matter how I like it. I let experience age and mold my character just as a person in real life is molded.
Others however seem to take joy in molding their characters. Deciding such and such will happen and then leading it to happen... and I just can't play with those people anymore.. It's not fun. It's even insulting... to my time and energy to try and play with someone when nothing I can do can have any signifigant effect on them.
Perhaps I'm being petty and silly. Perhaps because I'm happy to take on secondary/side kick roles I just don't understand the need that some people feel to place such importance on their characters.
Reguardless, the tics continue to multiply through the breedables as I play, and keep digging further and further into me. And instead of having fun playing with lots of people, I find myself begrudgingly playing parts that don't matter.. or hiding from rp at all just because I'd rather not have fun.. then get upset and have to rant to my friend again on how much these things bother me.
But I guess that's it. Take it or leave it. <3
Iris_virus · Thu May 19, 2005 @ 07:34am · 14 Comments |